This was always the aspect of Islam i was never comfortable with while i was a muslim, and it definitely didn't stand a single justification no matter how hard a person tries.
Tell us more about how you came out to your parents? have you come out as a homosexual as well? Are you safe where you are living? I tihnk you have immense courage to do what you have done, haven't enjoyed reading someone's bio a much as yours, most definitely truely unique in its own sense. In all honesty if God exists then he's misses out on the great people who prove to be way better humans than any religious person will ever be.
Well, if I tried to see from the other angle, you'll see that some quotes are very disturbing and pretty much unfair. Especially when I read it all in hadiths.
Firstly, I came out to my Sis when i was in High School. As expected, she didn't outright reject but tried to persuade me back. I came out to my Mom when I was in the college, and she said she had already known. But it doesn't stop them to sometimes preach me to go back and even to the point that my Mom yelled that I got possessed by a djinn or something. For someone who got "possessed", I was awfully quiet and reasonable...
I often open up as being misotheist/atheist in Facebook, Sis (and his husband) often warned me. Mom doesn't have FB but she knew it from my Sis, and she often went hysterical or sobbing about I got punishment from god or something.
When Mom, Sis and I discussed this openly (of couse with the drama) and Mom is scared that I would get what I "deserve", I ask politely. "Mom, I never have a drag race, i never go clubbing, I never scold you unless you scold me _FIRST_ and I always do whatever you want me to help, I don't even do drugs! So if this god is so fair, he's gonna punish me for what? If he has a problem, let him go down here and let me have a chat with it. I don't want to involve you two!"..
My Sis argue that, "If you become an apostate, we have nothing to do with you anymore!".
I replied, "If you cut our relationship just because of this religion, i still say you're my sister, whatever happens,".
I said this clearly, "No djinn, no satanic posession, as you see, I'm as calm as I can be, and if god has a problem with me, I don't blame ANY of you because of this. I don't involve you, this is my responsibility, by my thought, and as long as we don't disturb each other, things will get along just fine!". My Mom still feels I'm still to be saved, but Sis has thought this better and told Mom to let me go. Since then, I've been feeling much better. Things have been cooling down since then. It's still hard to erase the "imaginary hell" though. Damn doctrine...
Oh, my Dad? He prefers "Lalalalala I dunno what you're talking about so just shut up and let's talk something else!". He prefers avoiding open-talking like this. He doesn't want to debate. So, just for the sake of respect, I don't tell or argue anything with him. If it makes him feel better, fine, I still do shalat and anything religious... in front of him. Mom says she has told Dad that I don't do shalat anymore, but since he never tells it to me, so I guess he doesn't want to talk about it. Fine.
He even once asked, "Why don't you marry?". I answered bluntly, "I'm not interested!". I might have given him a white lie. I could have answered it with " ... not interested with woman!" or "still searching for a guy!", but I don't want to make a trouble. If he really wants to know, it should be on his own risk for asking it. I dunno if he reads between the line, but hopefully, I hope so.
here's your well deserved parrot :
Oh why thank you ♥
Topic: I left Islam in here's my story