Update:
Im sleeping n my bed ALONE yeah right no one with me....
we w ent to a club afterwards and this guy whos like one of my best friends bought me 3 jager bombs and I nought 2 vodka cokes....that's on top of the 5-7 beeers and the 4 shots of vodka skittles I hadalready had so yaeg I ewas fucked pretty bad
thing is he has a gorgeous girlfriend whos he beeeeen with since like tgey were 17 so he has othimg to gain or lose...whereas me I wanna get laid.....Anyway I kissed two girls in the ckub but then I had the jager bombs and Ii was too isck to evenh dance so I got a taxi home....
Im not upset..t sjust that one of the girl i kissed was trying to pull me and if it wasint for the shots she would be sleeeping right next to me now...oh and BTW i had the biggest crush on her since the start of the course...
so yaeh good night ut coulda ended better
Binge drinking in a nightclub to mask your insecurities is a dangerous game. You may tell yourself it is because you like to drink, sure this is a part of it, but not the whole picture.
Notice how you said "If it weren't for the..." I wouldn't be alone. It must be nice to knowingly get shit faced, and then blame the "booze" for your failures. I suspect this has already become a pattern in your life.
Aside from being the drunken Arab in the club

you are heading down the road to severe alcoholism.
You are begging for someone to say this to you by posting in such a manner, even though you will probably react negatively.