I am not sure if I will be that welcome around here because I am a Muslim...
Welcome, wizzie!! 
...and I do not intend on apostating.

It is the saddest thing to feel misunderstood by your own family, who are supposed to love you and cherish you the most.
In my experience, 'relatives' take care of you out of blood obligations but tend to actually understand you the least. It's the friends that you hand-pick to be a part of your inner circle who truly love you and are your real 'family.' Occasionally you get lucky and are actually able to pick a relative to be in your inner circle who truly knows you, but it's a mistake to assume that all your relatives will act that way.
There's no one who will stab you in the back faster than a relative.