^ No I'm not thinking of that........... I mean I can't do that... I would apply only if someone found out about my beliefs. I don't want to lose my mother!!
Ok I think now this explains why I said I don't know what to do... honestly I really don't know what I should do
I guess the UK wouldn't accept my request because I've been there before. Maybe the other governments will also take my stay in UK into consideration. And of course your request is rejected when you don't apply on time.. in any country!
I'm afraid the diplomatic relations between my country and the other countries and the laws applicable in my country will be taken into account too. I think I should worry about that too because the problem is with my small community only, not the whole country! It is my 'sub-culture' that FGM'ed me and put the burqa on my face and told me not to drive a car and will force me to marry anyone they like. It is my community that I fear the most.
Honestly sometimes I think of killing myself to free myself of all these problems T_T but I'll wait...
by what right? maybe FGM and apostasy, and probably forced marriage (they're waiting for my cousin to propose to me
) my daughters won't be accepted in my society if they aren't circumcised and I'm already receiving messages threatening with death (I announced my apostasy on my blog that's quite popular in my country, and which is closed now)
I try so hard not to hurt my mother. It's complicated!
^^^ oh that's why I'd like to marry a Japanese man who'd come to my family to say hi and pretend to be Muslim with me. lol.