Re: An Infidel living in the midst of muslims
Reply #61 - September 11, 2010, 02:20 PM
Throughout this week, i resolve to tell two of my closest friends about my apostasy, though our friendship is fading for some reasons, i decided to tell them to know if they can live with me that way. i got a different reaction from each of them.
The First One was my childhood friend, despite that i moved around to some other parts of our country,we kept in touch, we visited each other on school vacation. it was when i moved to the city that he is living(which i am living presently) that we became very close. but things changed last year, we keep in touch less often, we became more detached due to other commitments in our lives and became more critical of each other.it was then i made my mind to test him, to see if he is committed to our friendship.
when i told him, he was shocked, he tried to reason with me by showing me a true path, i said to him that i am not telling him this so that he can convert me back but to accept for who i am, if he can't then i don't see the point of continuing our friendship. he left that day telling me he will come back the next day. but he fail to do so, i called him many times but he refused to answer my calls.i hope when he recovers from his shock we will resume our friendship.
but if he doesn't want to continue our friendship because of my belief, fine i can deal with that, i can make new friends in this world, i mean there are billions of people in this world, so losing a friend because of religious difference is not worth worry, and wont deny my happiness in this world.
The Second one who i thought will be more liberal than the first one, was more shocked than the first one because his mother and sister are both christians. he wanted to leave immediately when i told him but came back and started saying how he will attempt to convert me back,i told him my real reason of telling him about my apostasy just like i told the first one, he said he was more shocked because he thinks i am more religious and learned,plus i am a good man, i told him being a good man doesnt make you a religious man. what shocked me most was when he said that if he could meet Pastor Terry jones, he will wished to be strapped with bomb so that he could hug him and blow themselves up. i was like WTF, you mean to tell me you will commit sucide over these foolish man's action, this is ludicrous. anyway he left not being certain on our friendship. his comment over the suicide attack has made me think that Islam has the potential of breeding a terrorist like Umar Farouk Mutallab no matter how the moderate muslims are trying to interpret their own meaning of Jihad.
what surprises most is that these two friend of mine are more immoral than me, they drink,smoke, have sex, lie, and commit lots of Haraam, hell i learned how to wank from the first one, and i watch porn for the first time from him, he fucks hookers( i don't like fucking hookers, i don't see the joy of paying someone to fuck them,i want to have sex with someone that does it out of pleasure and joy, not to get paid), if you scroll through his blackberry all you will see a pictures of naked models and pornstars.
I don't mean to be prude because i am not one, but the reason why i am pointing out his lifestyleis because as muslim if you have premarital sex, you have remove your faith from yourself just like a man pulling off shirt which makes you a kaffir. i think it is in a book name "Kitabul Kaba'ir(forgot the author's name)
I am not regretting over the decision that i have made because i cant lie to them and pretend to be something i am not, and i was living under an illusion, that they are my true friends. if they are going to cut me off for being a Deist. I say good riddance.
"I'm standing here like an asshole holding my Charles Dickens"
"No theory,No ready made system,no book that has ever been written to save the world. i cleave to no system.."-Bakunin
Topic: An Infidel living in the midst of muslims