Julien... i was an american muslim convert. I felt much the same when i first did
my shahada, and also had VERY strict muslims instructing me, but made it all sound
like the right things to do, even though i didnt understand it at the time. I, too,
began to question the intense hatred for xians and jews. I started thinking how
much hatred and violence there was within islam. (I used to be a born again christian,
too) I remember in my masjid, a preacher was saying how Shaytan pisses (urinates)
in your ears if you dont wake up for fajr. I thought for several days, what an ugly
thought to be taught in a sermon!!! I realized, I DONT NEED someone TELLING me
I HAVE TO give charity!! I do that by myself, and then telling me, "if you do this, or
do that, you will get a better place in jannah". Where there are all these virgins, and
little boys, and wine. And WHY would God be so detailed about these virgins being
a virgin every time you have sex with them!! All of the sudden all these haram things
are halal? AND in the presence of GOD?

Only once allah comes and asks those
in jannah... hows it going? you happy/content? They said, "yeah, thanks!" And then
allah leaves?

I didnt want to spend eternity having sex and drinking wine!