Emotional blackmail.
I went on a cruise this weekend with my friends despite my parents saying no. At first I wasn't even going to go, but a friend called me and told me to not let my parents win, so I got up, put whatever on and made it there right on time. When I got home, my parents weren't (and still aren't) talking to me, I heard my dad saying all sort of crap about me to my sister and they're doing a great job at making me feel like crap. They've turned the wifi off as well as if to punish me. I actually felt really sad earlier and cried but remembered that I've only got this year at home. My dad was talking so much crap about me, it was unbelievable - all lies and twisted stories. Trying to distract myself with studies but the low feeling keeps crawling back and making me cry.
I also hate the fact that there are more Muslims and Iraqis on my campus this year. I have to watch my back even more now. Our community is all about spreading rumours and since I've taken off my hijab (only at uni), who knows what kind of things will get said if someone spots me.
Also...weekends suck when you have to be face to face with people that hate you. I get bitter and sad when people talk about how uni was the greatest time of their life, the friends they made, and so on. I have more freedom now than I ever did, but at 22, it's not enough when you still have curfews and your parents dictate who you can be friends with. My parents can't stand the fact that I have some money. They can't see my phone bills any more and their wifi stunt doesn't work because the last time they did it, I bought my own internet contract. It's just so sad how my late 40's, early 50's parents are so childish and passive aggressive. I was thinking about marriage earlier and wondering if I could find someone to pretend to marry me..desperate thoughts, lol..
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I can imagine a lot of what you said earlier. It's tougher for ex-Muslim women living with their families and it's even worse if the person living with them is a sensitive one, I've had a lot of difficulty being that way and trying to get along with my parents who have their own interests at heart but they quite simply didn't care about the damage they've inflicted on me and I wouldn't look back when I have the resources to move away from them.
I have a curfew as well and I could've spent a lot of time with Lawrence Krauss yesterday and all I can do is just work towards a time when I'll have my own place and I can come back to it whenever the hell I want. My parents will never see the point of doing the things that I do, as a functioning citizen of society and it's because they're far too wired to believe anything else whether it be upbringing or by their own admission. Just make good efforts to make your life independent and I think you already are.
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