How much of my life I have wasted and am still wasting.
How hard it is for me to accept where I am in life as satisfying in some way.
That the greener grass on the other side still looks better even though I'm old enough and wise enough now to see the patches in the grass over there, it still calls me and teases me and laughs at me because I can't come over there.
ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!! (sorry, excuse my erm odd behaviour if there is some because im tired), but O M G, stuff you've done! and are doing!
I guess though, depends on what your definition of wasting time is :/ but I think what you're doing with CEMB and your other plans with stuff are worthwhile things and not a waste.
I totally get the grass is greener thing though, always pops around sooner or later to taunt.