Re: Apostated last year after 3 years in islam
Reply #27 - August 03, 2010, 02:13 AM
Not a terribly interesting story.
I grew up in an agnostic home. We believed in God but were not observant in anyway.
A modern jewish family. I remember eating pepperoni pizza on one ski trip. That should give you an idea of how unobservant we were.
I encountered islam through my wife, a muslimah from a relatively observant family.
South asian, not a hijabi, but prays at least twice daily, Maghrib and Fajr.
I converted prior to getting married, because islam was presented to me by a good friend as being extremely logical yada yada yada.
I knew my wife through university prior to "reverting" and always fancied her a bit.
After I became muslim, I courted her actively, eventually I met her wali (her parents are not in North America) who was very impressed with my white skin (LOL) and conversion.
We became a happy muslim family.
I think the point at which I started to disbelieve was when I travelled to south asia, and encountered "living" islam.
That is when I realised that islam is not what North American muslims portray it to be.
There is inherent hatred of the "other" built into the religion.
Whether the "other" is a muslim of a different kind (Shi'i, Qadiani) or a christian, jew or pagan.
Now dont get me wrong, this hatred exists in christianity too (jewish christ killers) and judaism (we wiped out entire nations on Gods instructions)
But these religions have made an effort to re-interpret the nonsensical garbage in their scriptures.
Islam has not done this nor is it capable of re-interpretting so much of itself.
In the end I realized that this is probably not what any of the patriarchs had in mind when they developed religion.
Nor do I believe that Mohammed intended for his religion to turn into something so divisive.
But his quest for power in medinah finally led him to build a certain amount of hatred of the "other" right into his religion.
In the end, I just stopped believing that Mohammed received any revelations from God.
He was making things up simply to hold on to power.