I don't really wasn't to go into it mate, unless something decisive happens in the near future.
All I'll say is that I'm still standing firm, but I miss her love, her smile, her cuddles, her fussing over me, and her wafles and eggs.
i think you are going back to islam,is very good decision,i'm very happy for you brother.dont listen to the people here,you get your wife in this world and in next world you get heaven if you beocme a muslim,and you get nothing if you dont,so i think you are definitely doing the right thing and good luck