WOW! This is nothing what I imagined, I never knew there were so many of bengali's in a position like me, hell if you saw what it's like here you'd understand why I felt like the only one, thank 'God' for google! (oh the irony).
@IGiveUp
My dad was 10, but he was raised in a british/bengali culture, my mum was brought here through marriage and has very backward view on everything, and yes it was arranged, matter of fact is I'm going to a cousins 'arranged' marriage in easter... Time to see that mullah crap again.
@Shahid
Ami bala asi

@downunda
Nope, infact I had to google search this topic to see if people like me existed, I told my very close cousins about this, and ever since I feel like we have drifted away, I get sly comments such as,
'man I cant believe you don't worship allah, your gonna burn man... Feel sorry for you'
Only person I feel sorry for is him... Shame he can't see the truth I see. I suppose thats the only thing that really scares me to tell anybody else, I don't want to lose my loved ones, but if they can't get over that then thats something I can live with.
@TheRationalizer
It all began when I was 12, when my mum told me to pray, I'd do it fast or not do it at all, but a guilty feeling would chew at me. Once I studied biology further in school and evolution, I was told it was a load of lies and given bullshit books on counter arguements of it. I continued on with a nagging doubt, I thought I was a freak and felt so left out from my family, however when I entered college and took philosophy, a light at the tunnel appeared. To think that there was so many explanations and theories, it was mind boggoling, but a certain philosopher called David Hume defintely set in stone my disbelief in God, I suggest people read some of his arguements!