berb, if I may ask, with so little energy how do you manage to run the household, go to college and take care your kids?
A good amount of the calories I count are my addiction to sugar and tea, so often if I write that it's been 700 calories, you knock of at least 200 of them as coming from cups of tea. I get my energy from sugar. Fake energy but it's been keeping me moving for years.
That is one of the things I am scrapping when I detox, my addiction to sugar. If I remove that, then all my calories will come from food, which will be better for me in the long run.
Berbs, the thing is, even though I can never imagine what its like to have the condition you have, I can definitely empathise with an impulse that a person can have to assert themselves in anyway that makes them feel like they can do something with their own body - to show they have some autonomy and agency - because otherwise their life feels like utter insignificance, when they have circumstances and forces and people who seem to overpower.
Even if its just getting recklessly drunk, or being promiscuous, just so you feel alive.
Obviously that is nowhere near what you are experiencing. But I think most people can understand that feeling of helplessness and need to assert control, even if it is destructive.
Pretty much. I never even realised this was what it was all about, I thought it was a weight thing. I always think people are lying to me when they say I'm not fat. It wasn't until the doctor described me as emaciated last year that I thought maybe I wasn't fat and that it was about more.
I feel so happy and in control when I'm hungry, when I feel full I experience severe depression, anxiety and I feel so out of control, lik everything is slipping away from me.
I wish I could enact this need for control in a better way.
Ooops who is anorexic? I was under the impression it is overweight problem..
You may be right.. 5'10" and 59 Kgs is not really a over weight.., You are right without reading the case carefully one should not throw a suggestion on web specially to friends..
I don't know why its coming up as 5'10' cos that's what the height converter thing gave me. I'm 5'9".
5'10 and 59 KG for a woman probably leans towards underweight not overweight, if it is, then as a guy at 5'11 and 73 kilograms I must be obese haha.
It's just a mistake dont worry about it but you should definately be careful about posting any extreme diet tricks and so on..
Guys are heavier than girls anyway most of the time. I hate knowing that me at my healthy weight (not now) is actually not what I consider a 'feminine' weight.
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