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- PrincessMeena
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You don't have to read this.
OP - July 20, 2011, 09:27 PM

The reason I'm writing this and posting it here is because I have no where else to put my thoughts and that I have absolutely no one to talk to about my grievances. It's sad but oh well. I gotta deal with it with a fake smile on my face.
Actually I wanted to post this a few hours earlier but I kinda got lost; didn't know where the "start new post" thing is. I have had a very difficult time looking for it and now (after wasting hours of my life) I have found the "new topic" section. Seriously, this site has been poorly designed (no offence) and honestly I find it VERY hard to effin' post ANYTHING here. It's the same reason why I did not post an introduction in the beginning (when I first joined). I think if you are encouraging people to introduce themselves and share their thought/beliefs/etc you should make it CLEAR and OBVIOUS so they won't be lost like how I was just now and go on wasting their time just LOOKING for the section where they could post stuff. I also logged in the chatroom and asked the 7 or 8 people that have been online there, but not even one responded. :/ I insincerely thank them. Whoever they were.
Frankly I haven't felt welcomed here. Not even a bit. No one really cares about you because you're new and a total noob. *sighs* That's one of the reasons I rarely come on. Because no one cares. Okay, I'm not trying to be an attention whore, I just want to interact with people who have the same beliefs/thoughts as I do (religiously speaking), because I can't find such people here in real life. I can't share my thoughts about my faith (or in this case, unbelief) with ANYBODY in real life. It's getting really awkward with my parents when they talk about Islamic stuff (that I don't give an eff about), and my brother isn't to be trusted. My sister... well, she can't do anything, because chances are she has the same beliefs as I do, but still! I just doN'T know how to deal with it, especially when Ramadan comes............. :/ Truth is, I used to fast EVERY Ramadan, because I believed that it was important and sorta like something that should be done. But now, things have changed.. and if I don't fast, it'll spark my parents' suspicion and I definitely don't need that right now. If my parents sense anything about my beliefs, they'll..... I don't know. Disown me. Behead me. Or worse. Whatever. I don't want that. I mean, I'm still dependent. I'm trying my utmost to just make them happy with me for now until I get to university and graduate! Then , they won't have full control of me. But now.. if I show them any disinterest in Islam, it's just untimely. I don't know what to do. It's frustrating. REALLY frustrating. Everytime my dad talks about something, I just can't stand how DIFFERENT we both are (same for mom). Their opinions and point of views are just much different than mine. MUCH different ( I'm not even exaggerating). I won't ask for anyone's help on how to deal with this, because I am certain no one will care since it's not their business. I hate how I'm always the one who HELPS people when they're in need, but when I'M in need, no one bothers to even care. It's not fair when people take advantage of your kindness and get away with it, and all you have to do is just pretend that it's okey-dokey. But it's not. But, again, oh well.. gotta deal with everything whether I like it or not. I feel like such a fake. Faking and pretending with everyone I know; my parents, my siblings, my so-called friends, even my own self. Fake fake fake fake fake faaaaaaaaaaake I can just puke! Well, given that I am a good person, and have always done (and intended) good for everyone, I ask the almighty "Allah", is this my reward? Oh, it's to test my patience? Well guess what, I don't give a damn about your test or rewards or whatever you have to offer. I try to believe in you, but you make it SO hard that I just give up.
So many things that are just TOO unfair. What a cruel world..

Please don't post any derogatory/hateful comments. If you don't like/agree with what I had just said, that's not my problem, just don't annoy me with unnecessary responses. The topic IS "You don't have to read this.", ISn't it? That's what I thought.
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Re: You don't have to read this.
Reply #1 - July 20, 2011, 09:34 PM
- Zaiba
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Reply #2 - July 20, 2011, 09:51 PM

NO read my PM first LOL here lemme just post it here too!

Quote from: Zaiba on July 20, 2011, 09:40 PM
Hey you don't know me but I just read your thread, I'm sorry you've been feeling so lonely here, and like no one cares, but that isn't completely true, even I feel like that sometimes but the truth is far from it, people really do care here, probably more than those you'll find in life. Yes it is true everyone has their own issues to deal with, everyone is hurting in one way or another, but that doesn't stop them from reaching out and making others feel better around them. I mean if you've read anything from my blog, anything at all, you'll see that I'm not going through the best of times, I didn't have an easy way out, in fact no one does get out of religion easily, but we're all here to help each other in the process.

I really do hope you don't permanently think this place isn't caring or supportive, cause that would really upset me personally and probably a lot of other members. If this is just a phase you're going through then it's okay to feel like that sometimes. Just don't be thinking you're alone in this, cause you're not.
- PrincessMeena
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Reply #3 - July 20, 2011, 10:06 PM

Thank you Zaiba and Lara. I have read both your messages. At least some people care..
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Reply #4 - July 20, 2011, 10:12 PM

Hey Princess, good to have you on board.

You can do much worse than sticking close to zaiba and lara; they're both lovely girls and will help you find your feet on this forum. Once you do find your feet, I think you'll realise that this forum does have some great people on it; people who will jump to your aid should you ever need any advice, or support, or a shoulder to cry on, or even just a listening, sympathetic ear. And once you find your feet, you will hopefully also realise that this forum is not as difficult to use as you might first think. The admins are always looking for ways of improving this website, so once you're settled, you can make suggestions to them about how to make things better for noobs?

Hi
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Re: You don't have to read this.
Reply #5 - July 20, 2011, 10:20 PM

Awww Musivore, you really know how to make me want some more of you dont cha?
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Reply #6 - July 20, 2011, 10:26 PM

Thanks zaibs, i think?

Princess: tell us more about yourself, either here or in an intro thread, now that you know how to start a new topic?

Which country do you live in? How old are you? What made you first doubt Islam? Do you have a plan for achieving independence from your family?

Hi
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Re: You don't have to read this.
Reply #7 - July 20, 2011, 10:38 PM

Patience, young padawan. You've only posted 8 times. Hardly enough to get to know you.

Too fucking busy, and vice versa.
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Re: You don't have to read this.
Reply #8 - July 20, 2011, 11:06 PM

Quote from: musivore on July 20, 2011, 10:26 PM
Thanks zaibs, i think?

Princess: tell us more about yourself, either here or in an intro thread, now that you know how to start a new topic?

Which country do you live in? How old are you? What made you first doubt Islam? Do you have a plan for achieving independence from your family?

She has already made an intro thread, I remember reading it and posting on it too. Here it is.

And yes you doofus it's a frikkin' compliment so you should be thankful not be saying "i think?"
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Reply #9 - July 20, 2011, 11:24 PM

Hey PrincessMeena.

This is the first time I see you post. I don't get on here that much and when I do, I don't see everything, everywhere.

You are definitely welcome here. I relate to a lot of what you said. Well, some of that is behind me but some of it I still deal with.
Yes, most parents think differently from their kids, as ex-muslims it seems there is even more of a gap. We become more liberal as they become more closed...
Our minds just work in completely different ways. Unfortunately, there's not much we can do about that, except try to improve our relationships with them anyway.
That's why it's good to have a support group and a place you can rant and a place you feel is a sanctuary, like here.

And yes, pretending sucks. You feel like you are not being true to yourself, supporting wrong causes (ugh, i think i have to attend eid this year and can't use the period excuse ) and even worse we're told we have to be ashamed because of who we are. And even though we're not, we can't show it. Hang in there. A lot of us are dealing with the same thing.

Rather be forgotten than remembered for giving in.
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Reply #10 - July 20, 2011, 11:56 PM

Don't get into a huff already, it's not a way to get people to care . Stick around, post some more, and you will become part of the furniture in no time.
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Reply #11 - July 21, 2011, 12:19 AM

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Reply #12 - July 21, 2011, 03:48 AM

dearest princess. like others have said, this is the first time Ive seen you here.
If you look at posts on noobs' threads ive written, ive apologized more than once
for a late "welcome". And for you, I am sorry I missed your intro thread, too!

You WILL find the support you need here! MOST DEFINITELY! And there are many
others in the same situation as yourself, who absolutely understand exactly what
you are going through

And if all else fails, you can contact one of the admins and they will do everything they
can to help direct you through this maze of a forum. Ive been here over a year now
and STILL am finding out things i had no clue about LOL.

Also, if you had written a different title, perhaps "I HATE FAKING ISLAM"
I guarantee the murtad cavalry would be at your side in a heartbeat!

Find a couple of people who can relate to you, and let them help you through
this miserable time. As you can see, you already have drawn the support of
several people above We DO care!

When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us.
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Reply #13 - July 21, 2011, 06:39 AM

For a while I felt the same way first time I came here in fact most people thought I was a troll haha but it takes a while , like others said post more so we can get to know you there are a lot of new people on the forum who are fantastic !

"its fashionable to be an ex Muslim these days"
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Re: You don't have to read this.
Reply #14 - July 21, 2011, 06:47 AM

Ok, I understand YOU found it difficult to know how to post an intro thread, and you believe this site is poorly designed, but there are plenty of members, and I do mean plenty who found it pretty straightforward to find out how to post a new topic. Maybe an automatic intro pm that lays out how to do it would help though, since as this thread shows, a few people slip through the cracks.

As to chat LOL that is like the worst place to visit for serious help. I sent a friend there when I was away for a few months because she needed people to talk to, and after 5 minutes of being sleazed out by men asking her what cream she uses on her body, she left convinced this place is full of slimeballs. Its a shame really, but chat is just the silly fluff section of what is offered here so its not the place to aim for if you want instant serious support..........................sadly unless you are one of the in crowd.

Anyway you appear to have figured out how to use the forumsoftware now, and at this forum there are many people who care, or who at least can offer you an ear to listen to your troubles.

Inhale the good shit, exhale the bullshit.
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Reply #15 - July 21, 2011, 07:05 AM

LOL@ body creams haha

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Reply #16 - July 21, 2011, 11:44 AM

To be fair, the reason she got no help is 'cos everyone was idle and she left pretty quickly^
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Reply #17 - July 21, 2011, 07:32 PM

Welcome to the forum, Princess Meena

I think i once met you on the chat but you didnt stay long, and i agree with berbs, chat isnt the best place for you to seek a serious help unless you are acquainted with most of the members here. but i can assure you with time, you will begin to love coming over to this forum because there are great people here who will provide you a support that you seek for which is what most of us came here for in the first place

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