Hello, a new member here!

I stumbled upon this website last year and I was really grateful to find that I’m not alone. I don’t visit this site much out of fear, but it has helped me a lot when I feel down or simply lonely. Perhaps I am in a rebellious state, perhaps I am confused, something my father claimed.
I used to be a Muslim and I can still remember crying in my childhood because I was afraid that I’d wake up dead, being questioned by the
Grave Archangels (lol) & forever being lashed by them. Somehow, slowly I began to question Islam and to be honest I never really received any answers. Just angry replies like “Why would you question that? It just is!” “You’re so selfish”.
Guilt feeling stuck with me a long time. Fear too because my father once uttered a death threat. Never brought up any doubt topics to him anymore. I can’t run yet, I’m still a student. Now I’m literally studying to save my life so I can escape this Muslim-majority country. Until then, pretending it is! Tough to be pretentious of our ‘piousness’ and what made me happy is that there are many here who can relate to me.
I’m glad that this group exists!
