From Cultural To Super Salafi To Ex-Muslim
OP - November 20, 2015, 11:40 PM
I never join forums, but I really want to connect with those who go through a super salafi burnout.
I think there's a lot of us out there that start listening to YouTube lectures on Islam, namely from those who follow "Ahlul Sunnah wal Jammah" and those that "follow the salaf."
What a traditional disease. You don't see it coming. I apostated in 2014, and it's almost the end of 2015 and I feel dead inside just a little bit.
Everything that we are told about Islam is a waste of life. I can't even express it in words, but we all know in the back of our minds that stoning, the marriage of Aisha, apostate laws, the treatment of homosexuals, etc. is all wrong, but we continue to justify it.
I am an agnostic atheist now, but I used to hate and demonize atheists..
Now before this ultra super salafi phase, I had a choice to be moderate-sunnah practicing muslim while getting along with everyone in the world, but I'm glad I became an isolated, and depressed soul that kept lying to himself.. Or else I probably would have spent my whole life in a lie.
We all looked at Allah as filling a personal void but it was because of attachment. All personal attachment. We're attached to the sound of the Adhaan and the sound of the recitation of the Qur'an.. When the whole time we're not even thinking about it. If someone recited "beat your wives" in a melodic and harmonious tone, we would just cry at the sound of it during taraweeh in Ramadan.
It's amazing how this happens. I don't need to go over what "Salafi Burnout" is because many have gone through it.. The question is how are we supposed to live our lives after ALL this stuff happened?
I guess it hasn't hit me yet.. All of the freedoms in the world, and all of the thoughts that are now possible. There's a hadith that says that Islam is a prison for the believer.. And I couldn't agree more.
I feel like a prison inmate that just got out and I don't know what to do even though I spent the last year and a half chilling with the "kuffar." So if there's anyone who went through a similar experience, please share.
"If you don't like your religion's fundamentalists, then maybe there's something wrong with your religion's fundamentals."
"Demanding blind respect but not offering any respect in reciprocation is laughable."
"Let all the people in all the worlds be in peace."
Topic: From Cultural To Super Salafi To Ex-Muslim