can you point me to the source where it says that plz?
I want to be able to talk to god.
From ‘Ubaadah ibn al-Saamit (radi Allahu anhu), from the Prophet (sal Allahu alaihi wa sallam) who said: “Whoever loves to meet Allah, Allah will love to meet him”
well that's a good sign for you i guess,
ihsan, the highest form of worship when according to some, one comes to see through the eyes of Allah,
Speak to a respected scholar of tasawwuf about it, or if you wish i can link you some nasheed-less lectures and books about it.
The mercy of Nabi saw is that he draws people away from the worship of the creation towards the worship of creator
humans are all slaves, you can be a slave to yourself, someone else, or the transcendent
that is when one achieves true liberation...