Now, I am not surprised he used say things like "one day I will kill myself" basically he had depression, i spoke to him when I was there in PAK in 2007 he came to see me normally he did not visit anyone much. We used to hang around once he cooked a chicken for me and invited me to his house, basically he had problems with his wife, there were rumours his wife ways playing in a another mans penn, i did not really believe it but I did notice they did not get along, my wife told me recently it was even worse they were not even speaking to each other, and majority of the folks thought it was mainly the wife to blame, I mean I can't even comprehend this, we was such a soft spoken guy you could barely hear him, I just can't understand what must have been going through his mind to pull something off like this.
That must have freaked you out - particularly as you had known him, and felt you could relate to him at one point in time!
Well, I feel sorry for the thought of the kids being killed, even though I only spent a month there or so, I did get to know him, he was actually pretty funny at times, like when he was normal, he used to do the harvest and always wear black clothes, i noticed that about him, I vividly remember, he used to wear a shirt under his clothes where he used to hide money form his wife, when he was working, I mean I remember one-time he gave money to his wife, came out and told me how he had some more money he does not tell anyone about and he used me then under his salvar kamees me and him just laughed about it, and he had taken me for a drive in his brothers car. Sometimes he used to come to my house during the night we would sit ontop of the roof in open air I would get high he would smoke cigs. It has not even sunk in for me, but I do get emotional.
Since I was a kid I had seen death, it hardly effects me now i have a complete detachment from it.