just chatting about myself.
OP - July 01, 2009, 02:43 PM
This experience of mine, had thought me something about life, that life can take an unexpected turn. I used to be confident about life, God and his religion nad that i will live a good life and die a good person. I used to say to myself that, yes, islam is good, yes, it's good not to drink, yes, i know what is wrong and right, yes, it's wrong to go to clubbing, yes, it's wrong to have sex outside marriage, yes, homos and lesbians are just confused about their sexual incline due to their upbringing and that sexual incline can change, yes, prophet muhammad is a prophet from god and yes, i'm a son of Adam and Eve . i used to feel happy when people convert to islam because they are the right path.
But since the seed of doubt being planted in my head and me, being an honest man, immediately know that i'm already out of the Islam, because i doubt one of the sura in the quran and suddenly, as the seed of doubt begin to grow, things are getting more and more confuse and , so confuse that i don't know whether islam is right or wrong, whether it is good to drink, about what is right and wrong, whether it is the right thing to go to the club, whether it is wrong to have sex outside marriage, whether homos and lesbians are just confused about their sexual incline due to their upbringing or it's natural for them and that means they will be forever like that, whether muhammad is indeed a prophet from god and whether i'm a son of adam and eve or an evolved human. I'm never prepared to be in this state. Life is like saying to me that you can prepare for yourself, but you can never truly prepared for what is in stored for you. Now i finally feel that i'm being true to myself, i can accept more people. looking back, i still say, "wow, it is something unexpected." and all of this happends because i got curious to what the murtad's argument about islam....am still confident about islam though...although you can say that it is the other way round...hahas...
Topic: just chatting about myself.