Re: FinallyFree: Meltdown at FFI
Reply #64 - July 24, 2009, 09:34 AM
Oh I've read many of them, indeed I have. I don't think like many members do that he is not an Ex-Muslim, from what I hear of his voice and his articles and Persian writing he is indeed an Iranian born Ex-Muslim. His parents were probably somewhat secular but his grandmother was religious, he often says that she is the one exception to his rule that there is no such thing as a "moderate Muslim". She was probably the old, kind type that would see her own ideals in Islam and espout them as if they were Islam itself, many of the older generation do this as they grew up in a different Islamic time.
But, I know why Ali Sina is how he is now. In fact when I first left Islam I was actually planning to be a Christian myself! I wasn't an "atheist" or "agnostic" till about 3 months ago, and when I was here I was planning to study Christianity etc. The pull of Christianity to an ex-Muslim might be fairly clear, I found the "love" Jesus shows you as oppossed to the immerciful acts of Muhammad to be quite contrasting, I also liked this personal relationship with God appealling whereby I would be one of God's children! Of course, these are all simplifcations and I found out what lies deep in Christianity so I changed my mind. But when I first apostasised I surronded myself with Christian fanatics, I even started going to the Christian Union at my university, interested. I read some of the new testament as recommended and I attended some bible study. I suppose Ali Sina did the same recently, his earlier work suggests strong atheistic/agnostic beliefs but it seems that he has gone the opposite direction to me, ie, only recently started surrounding himself with Christians, and the wrong type if that. Hardcore right wing doomsaying republican Christians! I think though he sees that Christianity is bullshit, and I dont think he accommodates them because he gets money from them, in fact, I can almost confirm that the support he gets from Christians is little more than lip service and includes no financial support! But, it must be personally gratifying for him, having a group where he can belong and which gives him moral principles he can base his ideas on. I don't think he has the strength to decide for himself anymore, which is a shame, because he's principles were once good on paper.
I can see the attraction though, it's a shame because this is the attraction that has brought him down.
"I am ready to make my confession. I ask for no forgiveness father, for I have not sinned. I have only done what I needed to do to survive. I did not ask for the life that I was given, but it was given nonetheless-and with it, I did my best"
Topic: FinallyFree: Meltdown at FFI