My first Ramadhan as a Murtad has happened quite well if I may say so. I have felt frustrated over the futility of this task because of the rest of the family keeping it, but I haven't missed any (though I did wank a few times in the shower when the sun was out
). I haven't eaten or drank during the Fasting period of the day. I am just doing this to deflect attention off me and my family given how people complained to my mother about my conduct
The most funniest aspect, while I am keeping fast, some relatives with whom we are currently sharing our family house with have stopped fasting since last week saying they cant stand it because of school etc
and they were the first to tell tale on me for being an Atheist.
All in all, I personally dont care since I am doing this just to avoid attention and waiting to just leave home and family and start my own life my way far away. Then I will state frankly to my mother, now I am not bullshitting anyone now so please let me be and dont discuss religious things with me, nor discuss me with others ever again.
I hope I get that day soon as I am sick of living here and living in Pakistan.