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OP - July 11, 2015, 06:43 AM

Tonight is a difficult night. I am harboring feelings of anger and resentment, and I don’t quite know what to do about it. I haven’t been myself in days, and my family has noticed. They don’t seem keen on hearing the reasons behind my festering hostility, so I have kept my thoughts to myself. I haven’t really smiled or laughed in a while. It’s getting harder and harder every day, particularly as I move in a direction that will make me more financially independent. It’s like I’m on a boat, drifting alone and competently, but chained to a bigger boat with my family on board. I can’t quite maneuver into a separation. I’m certain of where they are trying to lead me, but I can’t go on my own and traverse different waters, different possibilities. Possibilities are limited, even though I believe I have the capacity to do anything. I am afraid to leave. I am afraid to stay. I wish I had another loved one to harbor my feelings with, but I’m afraid of letting anyone in, afraid of letting anyone see my fear. Afraid of being left to drown.

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Reply #1 - July 11, 2015, 07:11 AM

Can you arrange to see a therapist? Being able to air these things is incredibly important for your mental and emotional well being. And of course you can unload here as well.

`But I don't want to go among mad people,' Alice remarked.
`Oh, you can't help that,' said the Cat: `we're all mad here. I'm mad. You're mad.'
`How do you know I'm mad?' said Alice.
`You must be,' said the Cat, `or you wouldn't have come here.'
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Reply #2 - July 11, 2015, 07:13 AM

Quod Sum Eris, unfortunately my medical doesn't cover therapy. They have counseling services at my school, and I had one scheduled for this week that I cancelled. I'm not sure what they could offer me. I'm not quite ready for action yet, but like you said, I do need to unload some of these feelings. Thanks for reading.

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Reply #3 - July 11, 2015, 07:55 AM

No worries. I'd advise you to take the option of a councillor. It won't work right away, but give it time.

`But I don't want to go among mad people,' Alice remarked.
`Oh, you can't help that,' said the Cat: `we're all mad here. I'm mad. You're mad.'
`How do you know I'm mad?' said Alice.
`You must be,' said the Cat, `or you wouldn't have come here.'
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