I think (sunni) Islam has become to clergy related nowadays, I remember reading about how the 4 Imams were imprisoned by the rulers of that time for their stance against the establishment esp. Imam Abu Hanifa but nowadays it seems like the sunni clerics are no different to any other elitist clergy, we see that in most muslim countries esp. in Saudi where the clergy seem to suck up to the monarch so they can impose their will on the people.
This is what led me to start questioning Islam, I was talking to a (salafi minded) muslim guy over the internet about a future 'islamic state' I had a deluded vision of it being an Al-Andalus society where culture, science and tolerance prosper and that the ruler would be of a military background as I believed traditionally emirs/sultans/caliphs were such men but he said I was wrong in
all my views and that the protectors of a state must be the ulama who "enjoin what is good and forbid what is evil" ie impose shariah law. It was from him I learnt about the apostasy hadith and other niceties, he told me that the military should be under the direct command of the ulama as they know when jihad is fard that really made me

we disagreed on the idea of a shura type parliament he said Musa, Isa or Mo weren't elected so such a system wasn't needed today

He even pointed to a verse of the Quran about most of the people being wrong or something thus democracy not being allowed. Secularism was "turning your back on Allah"

That was the 1st time I spoke to a muslim about such issues (he was really polite and kind unlike most who accuse you of being jahil) and is when I thought to myself that maybe the criticisms made against Islam could actually be valid. After that becoming an exxie was only a matter of time
