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OP - July 22, 2015, 02:43 AM
I'm not sure if I should keep all of my posts on one thread, or make individual posts. I hope I am not annoying anyone by venting here.
My family has been treating me so badly. I got yelled at today for no reason at all. They seem to like taking their frustrations out on me. I am not sure how to get the message to them that if they keep treating me so unfairly, I’ll just leave. I said this to my mother today, and she basically brushed it off like dust from her shoulder. The threat had become so idle that she doesn’t even worry about me leaving.
So I left for a while. I always tell them beforehand where I am going and when I will come back; my parents have really bad anxiety and I knew they would worry. I wanted to give them a taste of what it would be like when I wasn’t around and they had no idea where I was.
I was gone for about seven hours. I hung out with my best friend. I vented to her, told her about my atheism and the possibility of me moving out one day. She was very understanding.
My family left me alone for the first couple of hours, and then they started calling. At first it was just my mom. Eventually my brother called me a few times. And then my dad. And then my sister in law. They called, and called, and called. I ignored their calls and texts and deleted their voicemails.
I came home about half an hour ago. I was expecting to get yelled at, but I found my mom on the front porch. Her eyes were red. She said nothing to me. I walked into the house and didn’t look back. My sister-in-law tried to follow me into my room but I closed the door in a way that showed I wanted to be left alone.
They haven’t yelled at me. They haven’t really said anything to me. Now that I’m home, my mom is doing the thing where she pretends nothing is wrong, but I think I scared her. My words haven’t made the impact I want them to. I hope my actions speak louder than my words.
"Nothing lasts forever. Even the stars die."
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Topic: Out