Love marriages don't work, or both of you have to be extremely laid back - my personality always clashes with my wife's she is always upset about something even if she upset on someone else she takes it out on me, some days she'll be telling me how much she loves me, and other says she'll be telling me to go to hell. I've given up now, I've stopped shouting and breaking things in anger, eventually she apologizes. The more I used to argue the more it would escalate. I can't blame a guy for hitting a woman, I know how it is possible I can understand it, but that does not mean it is OK to hit a woman. It takes immense amounts of self restraint.
Once, I had planned to go into the city in the morning, and normally I would tell my wife what I was going to do etc, but this day it just happened randomly and my friend was going to come pick me up, my wife was making some tea I just got dressed and she said the teas ready I said I don't want it, and I just went out of the house.
When I came back she was ignoring me so I thought what could be wrong, she started accusing me of going out and drinking (alcohol) she told me I betrayed her, I was so shocked and pissed off at the same time, since I had not been drinking alcohol but she just would not believe me. Until I told her, she was making me very angry and upset, and that I should have had a drink, if I knew this was going to happen, eventually she believed me and her excuse for accusing me for drinking was, that I did not drink tea in the morning when I left and I left in such a rush. Anyway, during pillow talk she apologized to me and told me she loved me etc, and my love for her just increased so much in my heart it was a pretty good feeling.
I miss her so much, and being apart just makes her angry with me and messes the relationship up. But then I get paranoid sometimes (its the drugs) she will say something to me, and I will think she is talking cryptically, like she is cheating on me, or she might cheat on me, I try to find out if she is lying to me. Or just make strange and crazy rationalizations, but lucky most of the time I realize I am being unreasonable. I love her though. For a long time I was not sure if I loved her, but now I can say I love her, but also at the same time have a massive paranoia of loosing her, her falling out of love with me, that would drive me OJ on her.
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