Musivore thanks for the advice on the Urgent Matter thread, i do indeed have a lot on my plate already, but to fake my reality even in a minor form i still do not wish to be fake at all. I know i need to cut myself some slack but i've been a really hard person to myself always taking the blame and not being bothered with what i really always wanted, not that i'm a selfless saint cause trust me i'm far from it, i just don't think it's worth the trouble in trying to get what i want coming from a culturally/fundie muslim family.
I've read this a few times and have no idea what you're trying to say to me....I've got the 'thanks for the advice, but I can't act on it' bit, but you lost me not long after that...Was someone tickling your feet while you typed this out? It's not to your usual high standards...
But there's no need to translate zaibs, I kinda get what you're saying sweetie.