Ramadan 2011.....where do I start?
Last year's Ramadan was a nightmare,and I'm never going to forget it since it was one of the reasons I failed at college and dropped out. I'm physically weak and can't go on without food at the morning. All my lectures and exams were at the morning,and I couldn't concentrate or study while fasting. A month has a big effect,and it's hard to catch up after a while. Believe it or not,I fasted for my mom. I was a good kid and all that shit and didn't want to upset her,since she told me I shouldn't eat behind her back. haha when I remind her of this,she doesn't dare to talk,because she can't deny that Ramadan was a reason I got bad grades. I fucking fainted once,and she still said I should fast so that God would reward me. She told me it's my fault for not taking care of my body and that fasting is not responsible for this.
A year later now,this is going to be the worst Ramadan I'll ever have. First,because I hate Islam more than ever and I'm so fucking pissed at my family,friends,Mohammed(piss be upon him),and the shitty sheiks who made my life miserable. Second thing is that Ramadan is coming during the Summer,and here the temperature in August is 45C and sometimes 50C. We have AC but we can't stay in buildings all the time. I'll also be surrounded with people talking about Islam and Quran and shit. My mom will use emotional blackmail to get me to pray and read the shitty Quran,but I'm so pissed at her to the point where I don't give a shit even if she has those migraines she has.
I'm glad there's going be a thread about this. I need some tips on how to survive this fucking month.
Sorry to hear that. I feel your pain, stay strong!
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My tip: learn to lie and eat and drink. I suspect you are in the Middle-East somewhere? Good luck!