I became muslim about 12 (1999) years ago when i was about 17 after years old, I had no real religious conviction before then. Over the next few years I became very religious and grew a nice big beard (mashallah!), was the president of the university mosque, introduced roving islamic speakers etc. Islam made perfect sense to me for a very long time, its only until I dug deeper and gained more open minded knowledge that I started to ask questions. The answers that I found served to break the logical standpoints on which islam stood for me, Islam became more illogical and irrational thus imperfect and therefore not from god. It pains me to think that even though I wasn't an extremist of any sort, I took my relglion from a salafi standpoint which meant I logically had to condon stoning, marrying 6 year olds, all the other things that in my heart I found so distasteful and disgusting.
The simple fact is, that according to islam the prophet is held up as a perfect example for mankind, marrying a 6 year old is perfectly fine, owning slaves is a absolutly fine, stoning, slitting peoples throats with your own hands is all acceptable. What kind of a got can allow such things? Can it be that a mere human can show more mercy than the 'most merciful'. I was suspicious of the term 'religion of peace' and the liberal muslims who stated it, whilist some aspects of islam are moral, and maybe helpful to people, the other side is cruel and frankly out of this world. I found eventually my logical and thoughtful mind could no longer shoulder the burden of these so called perfect characteristics and nor could I in good faith become a liberal muslim, the only remaining course of action was to leave islam.
And now... I feel more at peace than i ever did as a muslim!
welcome to CEMB undercoverbrother,,,
So you started New religion murtadism.. Ha ..
Murtadism
That sounds really good Brother.. I join your religion..
So I hope you are NOT in undercover in CEMB .. like Those London Police in Mosques.. lol..
with best wishes
yeezevee