Is it free to fasten or not?

? or is it obligatory??
I thought Islam is tolerance?!
I cannot understand your problems. I have been told from different muslims that it is free in Islam to practice the
religion and absolutely voluntary.
Where is my fault in thinking???
Well, well, well. Ramadan is on its way. Damn. I don't want to starve myself.. Ugh. Especially when it's all gonna go to waste, since I don't really believe anymore. Oh, let's not forget that it's summer and it'll be very exhausting with no food or water :S I was intending not to fast, but well, nah. My parents will suspect something, and it won't be very nice. Because I used to fast every Ramadan.
So who's gonna be forced to fast like me this Ramadan?
Haha. Mom told me and my sister that we should at least read the Qur'an during this Ramadan, and at least practice the prayer.. Hahahahahaha! I don't want to fast, how would you want me to read the Qur'an and pray?! O.o It was a very awkward moment when she said that. I didn't know what to say, lol. Very awkward. OH. And Eid is coming afterwards :/ Last eid was a schoolday, and I attended school ( I didn't have better things to do ) while most of my Muslim classmates took it as a day off.
The good thing about eid is you get MONEY (or gifts) 8D Hahaha! That's the best part. Other than that, it sucks.
Who's looking forward to this eid? Not me. :/
I was wondering, isn't there a special day for those who don't really believe in any religion? Maybe I can celebrate it on my own since I don't have any close friends to celebrate it with. 8D