Where to begin? Perhaps I’ll start with telling who I am. I’m currently student at a university in England. I’m from a religious Pakistani family and for the best part of 3 months, I’ve been conflicted and confused and most important, I’ve grown increasingly disillusioned with Islam. I think it started when I just got sick of seeing Islam in the news for bullshit reasons. Of course terrorism but beheadings of hostages, beheadings of blasphemers, global violent riots against the west and just general depressing news from the hellholes in Africa and the middle east. The news coming out from Britain itself hits closer to home however because I can corroborate with what the news is actually saying. Were I to say Britain is being ‘islamisized’ as a white non-muslim Brit, I’d be branded with terms like ‘Islamophobia’ but I, a Pakistani Muslim, has no allusions to the veracity of this claim. In big northern cities like my own, Islam is being propagated. Muslim ghettos being built without a care in the world for locals. Halal food shops are so common and increasing in number, it’s not funny anymore. Add to this a sizable number of muslims who want sharia law and truly want to dominate the world and I am convinced Britain will look unrecognizable within a few decades thanks in huge part to Islam. Are these the rantings of a mad man with no basis? Were I a white non-muslim brit writing for the Daily Mail, I’d surely be branded a mad man but perhaps my name, skin colour, religion and the company I have kept can give credence to my foretelling claim.
I hate how Islam is beyond criticism and beyond reproach. Britain has become such a politically correct hole, it beggars belief. ‘Islamophobia’ is ingenious. Combined with the PC society we now live in, muslims have free reign to propagate and grow in stature and guess what? All they’re doing is practising their religion. Moderate muslims will say muslims should respect the law of the land and calls for an implementation of sharia to be absurd but these moderate muslims probably aren’t following their faith to the letter.
It was once I started to read up on Islam that I was shocked that it truly wasn’t a ‘religion of peace’. What shocked me more was that it never claims to be. It is what it is. A supremacist, ‘us vs them’ religion. So many muslims are so devout and steadfast in their beliefs of hate for ‘kuffar’, gays, blasphemers. Verily I will say Islam is NOT compatible with the west. I hate the lies we hear from moderate muslims (in the media and in everyday life) saying it is a religion of peace and the terrorists and extremists are not practising the ‘true’ Islam when in fact all one has to do look at the Qu’ran or any one of a number of authentic hadith to have these notions dispelled. At this point, I knew Islam contradicted my world view and my own personal morals.
One thing I hate among many muslims in my age group is their unwillingness to debate or argue Islam. They have a uniform defence: “Islam is perfect, muslims are not”. This aggrieves me so much. If Islam was perfect, why is it almost exclusively in Arabic? Revealed to a desert of superstitious polytheists in the 7th century? Besieged with horrendous sectarian violence to this day? A very difficult to read holy book littered with contradictions in the holy book which has an axiom of being perfect and the unadulterated word of god? I can go on and probably find some better examples. As I’ve said I’m just so disillusioned. Muslims are killing nonmuslims, non-muslims are killing muslims, and muslims are killing muslims.
Another belief instilled into me from a young age is that Islam is the only religion, everything else is wrong. This is quite a strong belief you know. It’s the last barrier to leaving Islam. If I’m now of the opinion Islam is wrong, then what does that mean? It personally leads me to a nihilistic world view and ultimately depresses me. I want there to be meaning to life and to have a belief in God but if Islam is wrong then what else is there?
Anyway to summarise, sorry for my waffle. I have haven’t written anything this long since GCSE English and have definitely lost my ability to articulate in the written word since then. I cannot leave publicly but I think in my heart, I have lost the battle and do not believe in the hate which is Islam. Islam is my polar opposite to my own views of peace: love for all, hatred for none. (*this happens to be the Ahmaddiya motto, a group within Islam persecuted horribly in this day and age) So anyway Hi!