Yeah, thanks

Might do that, think I'm going to take the night off, write it all down in my diary, have a cry and watch some tv, maybe type a heap of shit into wordpad and delete it, and hopefully I'll come right again. Just feel so frustrated 'cause thought I was doing ok with it all until yesterday and have more shit to deal with, life won't fucking leave me alone, thought I was fine again last night as I'd pushed through the shit and the day, but apparently not, it's all come and hit me in the face again, trigger, trigger, trigger.
Thing is, instead of crying, I tend to get really, really fucking angry at myself, hate myself for being upset, for being triggered, for letting myself get upset etc... This is the point at which my brain reaches back for old coping mechanisms and I have to go, "NO, FUCK that shit! You are stronger than that!" I had to do it yesterday when I was really struggling, and got through, so have to do it again tonight. Pity I can't take a lovely hot bubble bath, but got to pull through anyway with all the other healthy coping tools I have in my box.
