thnx my dear infidels, my dear metalheads n non-metalheads
i found the site just by accident, n im glad i did
why did i start questionning things? well, here's my story; - a summary actually-
one day, my dad wanted to give us, me my bro n my sis' some money for 'the little aid' or whatever they call it, i was by then 16, so he gave me 100dhs, my bro 100dhs, n my sis' 50 dhs, i asked him y, n he said that god said 'give guys the double u give ladies' some shit like this, n i felt it was sooooooo unfair toward my sis', i went into a discussion, well a verbal fight, with my father about it, n he said god said so, so be it, n he added, if w dunt fellow god's will, we'll end up in hell, i grew up in a very very religious family, so hell was something everybody's afraid of, so by fear i just dropped it, but as the dayz go by, i went into a depression, as i was upset about all the things he said about the way women should be treated, n i wanted to do sumthing about it, it took me almost 2 years to get over that depression when i heard a song of iron maiden, hallowed be thy name, in the lyrics it says, if there's a god, then y has he let me die, instantaneously falling in love with that kind of musik that was totally forbidden in my family, as was music in general actually, but thats another story, so these words gave me the courage to read the unholy quran n question every single word, every single letter of it, even the so-said miracles of it such as in some surrats it starts with somethin like this, 'alif lam mim', but when i ended readin it, i was sure at 1 billion% that islam is total bullshit, a religion of no peace, an exclusionary religion, an unfair one toward women, gays, happy ppl, free thinkers, late night ppl, everybody who doesn't fellow the bastard, the pedophile, the killer, the terrorist, the rapist muhammed, now ive been an atheist, well im a heavy metalist
, for 6 years now, not even one fatwa or stuff like that can convince me of the beauty of islam, as ive read it n searched for its meanings, n questioned about it for about 1.5 year, n im totally convinced its a complete BULLSHIT, but as i said earlier, i lost ALL of my friends who new about my atheism, even the closest ones, so i found pretending being one just easy, but it doesnt make things better.
so what about u guys??
la ilaha illa Johan Söderberg
, a guitarist from amon amarth, my favorite band
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