Amusing.
You yourselves used to be scared shit of "Allah". Not that Allah ever directly spoke to you, or you were aware of its presence through perception. But... from just the verses of the Quran... which are merely words... on a page... in a book... written a long time ago... for which you had no previous knowledge about regarding its exact composition/compilation untill your infidelity prompoted you to research further...
You used to have these verses recited by some pumped up stranger, pathetically and hopelessly calling out up to his sky fairy, blasted into your ears and faithfully prostrating to them. Letting them drown out every sense of self-worth and sensibility in you.
You used to struggle apostasy and blasphemy. You used shiver to the speeches of some fervent Sheikh.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lb5kStuMpFAAnd slowly you got yourself free from this. Bringing yourselves into infidelity not through your own strong individuality and independent thinking but rather accepting the words of personalities you yourselves sought because they agreed with your (then unstable and weak) way of thinking and fed it to you in a more elaborate, intelligent and flamboyant manner convincing you more so of the position of world view which you had a preference over for yourself. They eased you in your infidelity because you felt lonely and outcasted. You needed someone, a personality you looked up to, to validate your way of thinking. Someone who could take on what you needed to debunk but you couldn't manage to yourself, on a public arena in full measure head on. Directly countering and putting into unease the adherents of those who believed in what had been impressed upon you menacingly.
Consciously avoiding your unbearable and bitter past. Disassociating from individuals that remind you of them. Evading all things Islamic.
Abrahamic religions are big on "religious people-ism" in a groupy and conforming sort of a way. And its not about searching for and abiding by truths. But rather aggression and oppression perfected by crafting and posing fantasy as truth.
You, just like them, are a cog in the machine. Only you are less cowardly and more intelligent.
They are a people domesticated to what they cannot see. And you want to serve as an alternative to that. Dream on.