My Deal
OP - February 22, 2013, 12:25 PM
Alright my story started two years ago. I have always been very "spiritual". I was born into a Christian family, but all the Jesus worship and condemning made me turn from Christianity. When I was 22, I decided to research Islam and Judaism. I wanted to know why the American media is trying to make everyone so fearful of Muslims and I wanted to know the truth for myself.
So I started going to my local Masjid.
I was introduced to their Youth Group and I instantly became very close friends with a handsome Kurd. We would stay up all night, every night talking about religion, culture, history. Then we would hang out a LOT. He kept trying to get me to convert, but I'm just who I am. A person who questions. Well, rumors started that I liked him, which I did.....and that's when shit hit the fan.
He started being a jerk and being really forceful about his religion. He, as well as a lot of other people, acted as if I was this haram whore. First off, I didn't know nor understand all the rules about males and females. He did know that, yet he stayed up all night speaking to me and hanging out with me alone.
It was innocent though. We never even hugged much less anything else. On top of that, my "western" ways was apparently a problem. Sure, people would smile and greet me with Salaam, but other than that......no one had anything to do with me. Everyone congregated into groups according to their cultures. Everyone gossiped.
It was worse than Christianity. The judgement and condemning was 10X worse. The subject of "We don't want our youth to become so westernized" was constantly on the agenda. So......then why the fuck did you move to America? Seriously? You think your kids would be perfectly "eastern" growing up in America? And if you hate America so much then why the fuck are you here?
Not everyone was horrible. I made a few friends. But the experience really messed with me. And anytime I tried to learn or ask questions it seems like people just skimmed the surface with fake politeness.
I don't feel comfortable with religion or religious people at all. Talk about demons and jinns.......you won't find them in abandon buildings you will find them in Churches, Masjids and Synagogues.