Thoruddin Hammerkhan here, Ive lurked the cemb forum off and on for a while, eventually I decided to come say hi to you nice folks. A little about me: I had never been a 'fervent' believer. I would stay away from pork and stuff but would find excuses to get out of praying ever since I was young. I am lucky enough to have parents who are intelligent and liberal, so they never coerced me or pressured me against learning, which lead me to read as much as I could about as wide a variety of topics as I could fathom eventually leading to my apostasy. I am however 'in the closet' as far as my family goes. This is for a number of reasons, but primarily the undue heartbreak I would cause them. I prefer to leave it to the status quo for now.
I was always somewhat on the fence, I believe that would be considered agnostic, until a few years ago. A good friend of mine -who I used to debate on a daily basis about a variety of topics- one day said to me : 'How can you be such an intelligent open-minded individual and still believe in an invisible sky wizard?' That statement stuck with me for a while, leading to me questioning things that in my mind I had labelled 'off limits'. Sadly, one of the things that really pushed me into straight up, no-nonsense disbelief was when I had a family member pass away and had to endure the endless tirade of religious crap. The straw that broke the proverbial camel's back was the idea that a mother could not visit the grave of her child, as per Islamic rules(I've heard arguments for and against this before, but rest assured she was not allowed specifically because it was considered 'halal/makrooh').
I'm a fairly regular user over at reddit/r/exmuslim, and I believe some of the users here and there overlap, which is cool. I have found the exmuslim community to be amazingly warm, open-minded, and filled with bright individuals. I'm looking forward to getting to know you, my fellow apostates as well. :