Till Death do us Part
Reply #28 - October 17, 2013, 02:03 PM
A feeling of anger has pervaded my view of my Hala's death. I do have a target for my anger. My gay 'uncle'. Yesterday I said that the ladyboy should have married her and that their love story was one hundred years in solitude (in their case 45)he is 50. I also said he is in 'bits', I was wrong, sure the gay uncle feels it but I had mixed his name up with the name of her eventual and current, well not current, husband. it is the husband who was in bits as seen by my sisters on Skype. (They have the same name so my Hala was a victim of two men with the same name 'A tale of two ****'s'. And let me put to rest the notion that names and their meanings have any bearing on the character with the title.
I have not spoken to my sisters for a few days, as they fulfil the obligations of death, the rituals, the gathering, the meeting (I met who was important the night before, the first cousins) I prefer to stay at home, shop shut/shut up shop because of death/Eid, listening to music.
Anyways, the gay uncle rang yesterday, spoke to everyone else, he wanted to speak to me - made myself scarce, my sister says that everyone is saying to him, if only you had married her, she would have been alive, or at least died happier. He uses the Islamic defence - it is written, the will of Allah bullshit - see, who says gay people always suffer?
Apart from his years at uni the two of them lived no more than a half a mile away from each other throughout her life, the last twenty years, no more than 50 yds as the crow flies, 300 yds by track, and 45 years of solitude from each other. She must have liked him, a feminine/caring/softly-spoken boy, it was destiny, that is all she knew, then a long wait without him admitting he was gay, I can't have kids/can't have sex, wonder how that felt to her, so wait and wait, then bad marriage, no husband (only 10 days a year) whilst gay uncle is out dating his older 'friends', remaining unmarried. If he had married someone else, ahd kids, lived happy perhaps my Hala would have been okay with it (my sister says no she was a female they don't think like men, I am not so sure)but to know her intended, her destiny was so close but yet so far....
If she had been on a forum for the past the past few years, I hope there was a dude/dudette on the net trying to cheer her up, or give the attention, if she already had a funny bone.
I would have said to him, you ****, you could have had her as your fucking beard, you clean-shaven ladyboy. popped out a few kids, and carried on sucking cock to your heart's content.
maybe this is why my culture abhors homosexuality. Personally I couldn't give a shit what the fuck people do, just wish my uncle wasn't fucking gay.
NO OFFENCE TO ANYONE GAY
I am my own worst enemy and best friend, itsa bit of a squeeze in a three-quarter bed, tho. Unhinged!? If I was a dog I would be having kittens, that is unhinged. Footloose n fancy free, forced to fit, fated to fly. One or 2 words, 3 and 3/thirds, looking comely but lonely, till I made them homely.D
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