SAM I AM: do you understand what this means?
The existence of your god is not yet in evidence. Any further claims you make that rely on your god existing are inadmissible. Until you, at the very least, put forward some kind of compelling argumentation for its existence, any other arguments based on that premise are gonna be found totally redundant. Without evidence or argumentation, you have nothing to bargain with. You can't possibly expect your critics to commit to the same belief as you when the tenability of that belief is the very thing being disputed
Know it or not, Moses himself when want to see Him with his own eyes. Just saw some shadow of God he was already unconscious.
What you really are willing to take high risks, whether dead or alive or others. I've made almost dead and I quit because I fear of something bad happening at any point..