Do you really think they don't believe billy? Maybe they delude themselves into believing...
I can't imagine why someone would passionately propagate something they don't truly believe
Honestly, confused, I think deluding themselves into believing is the only way some of these guys can still believe. I think there's like a "level of belief" versus "intelligence and research completed" graph that could be plotted where, as their intelligence and research level climbs, their level of belief deceases and, in rational people, it should breach a threshold point where their faith is lost. There's some dawah guys who strike me as being as dumb as a bunch of rocks, and I never question their beliefs. It's the charismatic guys who have their act together (somewhat) like Tzortzis who make me wonder.
I don't know how to explain it, but I still remember that weird feeling I had for the final years where I was in crazy apologist mode, and I wonder if the more intelligent dawah personalities ever get this way. I was trying to fight off the hadith and trying to make the Quran one big metaphor, and trying to justify God to men and to myself, and still "believing it," but somewhere in my mind I knew that, if I allowed myself a moment to stop and to forget all of my social ties and my projects and the years wasted and the stuff riding on my faith, I would have to accept that I had aligned myself with something that was not the truth.
I carried that little understanding in my mind for years, though, and still was able to trick myself into believing. But once I finally gave myself that honest minute, it knocked down all of my faith and reassurances that I had built up for years that were, by then, held together with the intellectual equivalent of scotch tape and elmer's glue. In retrospect, I
would call everything I was doing lying. I was lying to other Muslims, I was lying to non-Muslims, and I was lying to myself, and a part of me always knew it.