Hi there,
I'm glad i found this forum! I'm not an ex-muslim 'yet' loool, but i'm differently on the right track for it. I'm questioning everything about Islam, I'm almost convinced that quran can't be from God, just too much contradictions. I want to stop my mind from thinking but I can't, it's like the domino effect, one dice is falling after another. It's all Dawkins mistake in the God delusion. I read it 5 years ago and skepticism started to creep in
. I tried to stop it as I'm married with kids and my husband is a lovely muslim man, I knew if I left religion it will break his heart and he might think to either end our marriage or feel guilty for the rest of his life that he's married to an apostate loool and he might burn in hill forever after he dies. I'm really laughing at this now but I know it's not funny it's just my own personality; I never take things too seriously for some reason. Anyway, then came Dawkins again in his documentary about muslim schools were he challenged the muslim students about the quran scientific miracles. Now that was an eye opener, I searched around that a lot and concluded that there were no such thing as quran science at all. Actually I can say with sorrow quran is full of scientific errors! So I was addicted to reading other people perspective about Islam and it made so much sense that it's a man made religion. I really did not want to come to this conclusion, really but my mind for some reason doesn't want to stop thinking. So, I silenced my mind for a couple of years and started living my normal routine family/work life. I was also busy to progress my career and was interviewing for jobs then this penny dropping moment came last month at a job interview when the interviewer asked this final question ''how can we help you reach your full potential?'' and I just realized that he was the only person in my whole life that asked that question, it quickly reflected 'for me' at my religion, it was in the way all my life preventing me as a women from reaching my 'full potential' I just thought how difficult is it for women under Islam to progress their higher education and careers,, I mean i've done it to some extent for now but it took a lot of convincing and negotiation with my husband that continuing higher education won't affect my 'main role' as a wife and mom, then another long negotiation about work! I mean, don't get me wrong, if anyone 'wanted' to reach his/her full potential they will face difficulties on their way, but if Islam is a true religion from GOD for men and women, it won't put obstacles to reaching your potential, it will not restrict women to a specific role in society as a main purpose for them in Islam. It will acknowledge that women as individuals are different and not all of us can be confined to that purpose. I know some muslim women have their own interpretation of that issue just for the purpose that they want for example to travel abroad without a Muhram to continue their study or other work/life issues, but really why 'Gods words' should take more than one interpretation?? If I were God I would send very clear orders that make life easy and happy for all of us! why complicate my creation own lives?? So, yes I think that's were I'm at the moment,,, just skeptical about everything in religion and 'almost' an ex-muslim 'unfortunately' just because I don't think I can declare or discuss openly to my husband that I am not a full rounded muslim anymore,,,, ahh what a mess having a critical mind can make
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