Glad tiding and salutations upon thee fellow Ex-Muslims
Thank you for allowing me to introduce myself in this wonderful forum & to this community.
I am an Ex-Muslim living in Toronto, Canada. I am still mostly in the closet given my religious family and friends, and keep my disbelief on the down low, albeit I don't hide that I don't pray nor fast to my parents. Of course this causes my parents, and especially my mom much angst. We've had a lot of chats and I think at this stage, I'm past (immune to) all the emotional blackmail. You know... "what did we do wrong?", "is this how you reward us for educating you", "Allah must be punishing us" and "children are the sadaqatul jariyah for their parents" etc. I think my parents kind of know I've gone astray from the flock, but we don't discuss it and the rest of the family and friends are none the wiser. I'm trying to keep up appearances in public, but of course it's a charade to placate my parents. I think what's really important to them, especially my mom, is what people will think. You see.. my mom is one of the family's resident in-house Islamic scholars and the family even call her an Alima, so of course news of my apostasy might reduce her authority and status, and create fissures in "the enterprise". We've all been through these shenanigans more or less
I would love to meet up with other fellow Ex-Muslims to build enduring friendships without being judged for what I believe, or don't
Peace.
What's up, from University of Western!!!!!!!
(even though you are not that far away), wish I could meet up but I just deconverted a few months ago and still in the closet and still way too paranoid to talk about this, in the meantime I am only comfortable on the internet Incognito (Can't let anyone find this cuz I don't want to through any drama, and incase any of my muslim friends at uni use my computer they never get any doubt about my "Imaan
), Still feels great though that there are others not too far away
Topic: Ex-Muslim from Toronto, Canada