First of all, thanks for the awnsers so far.
Writing a Book about writing a Book sounds great. In this case i will write TWO books
What i want to write about is honesty about myself and my inner monologues i have. (yes i am talking to myself in my head)
I want to write about how i fought my inner demons during hard times of my life.
Not so much about the situations, but more about what i thought... how my inner Devils, my evil me, tried to overcome me and suggested horrible things to me. (this sound all pretty weird, i know)
I want to show, that even a regular guy like me. (and thats what i am) can have evil, hideous and vile thoughts from time to time, and i want to analyse how this can happen. In wich situation do I as a person have thoughts of Killing, Rape, murder, violence etc. Not that i ever would do such a thing, but from time to time, in really desperate situations such thoughts come to my mind.
Isnt moral something like one voice saying "RAAAAAH, i gonna kill this guys for sleeping with my Girlfriend!" and the other voice says: "Wait a second, your girldfriend has a part in this too, and by the way, killing is wrong!" You know, the classic angel/devil dilemma.
I dont want to postulate that everyone is like me. But maybe there are some people who have inner Monsters who come to life when something terrible happens to them. And i want to try to be absolutly honest about myself. I had thoughts of Murder, Suicide, Rape etc. (please dont be scared, im a nice guy and i would NEVER harm somone!)
So yea, thats the basics about what i want to write about.