You're not alone infidel, i quite often feel embarassed by what my countrymen do
Btw did you tell your parents about your apostasy or not yet?
Nope. I am in the UK studying ATM, I just speak to them by phone. I am not even sure if I am ever going to do it soon. The possible consequences of 'coming out' would be quite far reaching, possibly affecting my brothers, which I don't want to happen.
"In every time and culture there are pressures to conform to the prevailing prejudices. But there are also, in every place and epoch, those who value the truth; who record the evidence faithfully. Future generations are in their debt." -Carl Sagan