Re: I am Lord BlackDog
Reply #19 - May 03, 2010, 02:00 PM
The reason I left is because of procrastination, I was going crazy, felt like I didn’t do enough in my life. I got one of my plans done, and now working on another writing project, which is taking time because I'm a lazy middle-eastern. Just been reading and stuff. And trolling islamists and muslims on Youtube.
I also felt that I had to get out of my own head and CEMB to find what my thoughts were. Things went so fast, so I just had to re-think my own position. I still have a hard time calling myself an atheist. Although I still want to debate philosophically about the existence of God, I think I can evolve more there.
In any case I have realized there are no easy answers, and being an atheist is an uncomfortable position but that’s the point, we simply don’t know. Making shit up is not a position I want to take. And honestly that’s what I feel religions do, no offence to any theists. Since I think religions are man-made, the question about God and Gods becomes a philosophical one. And thus how do we know there is a God, how do we know the attributes of this God? Can we find evidence for the existence of this God or the nature of this Universe outside natural explanations?
I remember when I was a muslim and believed by myself, through introspection and reading I had this matrix feeling that wow the universe is Islamic or the universe is Allah’s design. It’s a funny way, because shouldn’t I have always thought like this? I guess I was trying to find reality fit Islam and was having a hard time doing this, and turned it around, so I made Islam fit reality. Which is BS, reality has an objective truth. And that’s where I’m at now.