Faith No More
OP - August 25, 2010, 07:19 PM
Heya guys and gals, just a quick introduction.
I am a 24 year old art student and Ex-Muslim in Manchester, UK. I love drum & bass music, irreverent art, movies, dancing, nights out, lazy Sundays. I probably smoke and drink too much, and I love a good bacon sandwich. My mother was of the first generation born here in UK into a large Sunni family from Pakistan. My father is half Indian, half white British, from a Hindu family. An interesting set up, you might say. Volatile and ill-fated from the start, most certainly.
I renounced Islam a few years ago, though I do so much more freely only recently. I wholeheartedly reject the god of the Prophet’s dreams, desires and delusions, and I am proud to call myself an Atheist/Naturalist and an Apostate. This is in part due to my own journey under Islam; the unsatisfied questions in my heart, the prayers never answered, the suffocating and overbearing masculinity and arrogance, the stark contrast between my life and those who, mere streets away, could run and play and sing and dance with no fear or shame. And I, as a child from an illicit union, was hated in the womb. But most of all, I renounce religion because of the abuse my mother was subject to, by the family that should have loved her, protected her, cherished her. Out of respect for her privacy, I will share no more details. Just say, she protected me from the worst of it, and Allah should count her tears.
Together we found the strength to be free from Islam, to become women, to make a new life. My mother is my hero, my inspiration, my best friend. I have her fire in me. I am thankful to her for this new chance. No pity for myself, no shame for who I am, no more fears, no more tears, and no regrets. Tried, tested, built to last - the sum of my parts. My mother and I are in a good place now. She is happy, and beautiful, with a new life. I have seen my father again after many years, and he is a good man, with a new wife and son. And as for me, I am in love. What more could I ask for? Like the phoenix, from death - life.
Anyways, this is turning into a rant. Much love and respect to all who stand proud, no longer under Islam. I’m going to lurk and read a bit and get my bearings.
Peace.
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