Booyakasha
I have been reading the threads on this forum for a quite a while under another username and I finally want to share my story. This is gonna be long so brace yourselves. I just want to let it all out here, if that's okay. I don't actually know what I want to achieve from this or what I want from people who read this. I don't know if I want advice because it's kind of obvious that I should just suck it up and stop being a little bitch and just wait till I'm independent and can support myself or if I'm just an attention whore and want people to talk to about this or if I'm hoping someone out there is a genius and can come up with a totally different solution to save me (or if I just want a parrot). Okay enough of me being an emo fuck.
She said that during the summer holiday she will take me to imams and scholars to try to convince me and help me find the 'truth' and if that doesn't work then I will have to join a proper Madrassa and find out the 'truth'.
Yeah. To do anything at this point would risk your physical freedom.
Rabidly religious parents aren't easily quelled.
And they sure as Hell won't take you seriously, or respect your change in beliefs — at all.
The more you persist, the more unpredictable they can become.
The appropriate time to confront them, and the ONLY time to confront them, is when you're the one arguing from a position of strength.
The picture slowly started becoming clearer.
I stopped protecting Allah with my excuses and nonsensical justifications and just took what the Qur'an and teachings said word for word without any presumptions. I stopped being biased. The more I thought about it the more obvious it became that Islam was a man-made religion and that it was only a stepping stone, an attempt to explain the unknown. I talked to many people and went to debates/talks etc and all I was provided with were ridiculous semantic, circular and ontological arguments, arguments from ignorance and abstract philosophy that were hilariously pathetic. I bought many many books to help me better understand science (particularly evolution and certain aspects of cosmology) and I was able to delve even more into biology in my course. I also researched the greeks and the discoveries that were copy pasted into the Qur'an as it's own divine revelations, most of which where wrong anyway. I found a lot of similarities between the Abrahamic religions and babylonian mythology and it's easy to see how those religions evolved from their babylonian roots.
To be completely honest I did not research Islam as much as I had originally planned to. I only explored the idea of the existence of God in depth, regardless of the religion that claimed it.
Once you re-think what we know as spiritual knowledge, the fundamental basis for any dogma, Islam doesn't seem like the monster you once thought, and you're able to see how insignificant Islam really is.
Isn't it wonderful?
Topic: To be (an atheist) or not to be?