In terms of what I want to do, I want to just leave my family, go live in another city, and work and visit brothels and strip clubs for the rest of my life, I think I'd be happy doing that.
Perhaps you should ask yourself why you think you’d be happy visiting brothels and strip clubs for the rest of your life?
Muslim women aren't quite what Islam says they are supposed to be like unfortunately, my wife is nothing but a headache, she follows most rules but conventiently ignores the way she's supposed to treat her husband and it just makes life terrible. She might be one of the reasons I've been put off islam in fact, I just feel so down and horrible and stressed that I just don't want anything to do with it.
Your wife ‘ignores the way she’s supposed to treat her husband’, yet you’re the one who cheated on her.
How badly does your wife treat you?
How do you think she should treat you?
Don’t you think that you should discuss this with your wife?
She’s probably as unhappy being married to you as you are to her.
This is what I’ve gotten from your posts so far;
Your wife is married to a man who seems to have an obsession with brothels and strip clubs.
A man who wants special treatment because he thinks Muslim women should be subservient and worship their husbands.
A man who struggles with love and respect and prefers going to massage parlours because parlours offer him choice and he can walk in and pick which woman he wants to fuck.
You chose to marry this woman. Surely there must have been some connection between you two. The least you can do is talk to her as a friend, as someone you love (or loved), as a wife and tell her what’s going on with you and your dilemma. Be honest with her, I think she deserves that much. And deal with the consequences of your actions. The sooner you come clean, the sooner you both can sort your lives out, you can go purchase sex and she can go find someone better.