Stop worrying about it, it's exciting, try and focus on the reasons why you're taking this step, and stick with it. Trains are fun, just don't be afraid to ask a guard if you need to check what platform you need etc. No one else knows you feel the slightest bit insecure, so just act normal and bear in mind, there are other self conscious people on that train, it's not just you! Take a book to keep you entertained - but maybe not the Koran
It'll be fine, and you'll feel great when you get home.
Thank you, sometimes though I do panic because I don't tend to stay out late, my parents really do not like it at all so they start to ask too many questions. Does anybody else have parents like this? How do you deal with it?
How could you feel guilty about going to a job interview? You are not doing anything wrong.
Good luck with the interview. What is the job?
It's more about feeling guilty about going through the whole process of trying to find a job, any job, to run away with. I am not sure if I can get it but it is worth a good try.
It's a teaching job abroad. I will have to do a very short practice lesson as well as an interview which is a bit worrying and also silly as the time given for the practice is only 6 minutes which seems pointless.
I don't believe I've said hi to you before Smiley
Does it mean you will be moving to Oxford if you get the job? Is it out of the question for you to move out with your family's accept if you explain to them you got a job there?
Hello to you too!
No the interview is in Oxford but the job itself is abroad, somewhere in Asia. So I cannot let them know as they would automatically disagree and they tend to get quite authoritarian about these things too so I don't have the courage or perseverance to argue about it to them. I never have done.
A good friend of mine (His username on the forum is AGuyWithAnA) is homosexual, and had to move away as well for "work", and for once he's able to live his life the way he wants to. It's not a perfect solution, but at least you don't have to live with the paranoia of your parents looking for you, and perhaps without the guilt you're feeling at the moment.
I am bisexual. I am happy to see he has gained and enjoyed some greater freedoms.
I hope to do the same one day but abroad is really the only way as I am soon to finish my degree but it is harder to find a job for me, I'm not sure why but I keep applying and never get anywhere.
No, you're not being selfish. Far from. It is your right to be able to live your life without the restrictions of an outdated religion, and without the backwards aspects of the culture. It's your right to be able to chose your future partner, and whom you wish to share your life with. The aspect of guilt and shame is something I know way too well myself. In my case I have become sick and tired of always having to lie to my parents. You always feel guilty doing it, but we have no other realistic alternatives as you said yourself.
Thank you for your lovely comments, I feel somewhat better now but I will try and remain positive and remind myself of what you said to help me gain more confidence.
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