hi all,
thanks for accepting me.
I would identify as a muslim woman, however, there are so many underlying questions that I can't keep shoving under the carpet much longer.
I have read through a lot of your post and see there are lots of themes re-accurring so no need to go into detail.
i think the main thing is the feeling of been brainwashed and not able to leave, the guilt, the shame, the fear! fear of hell, fear of `god, fear of everything and the consequences,.
Im sure many of you identify with these issues. I would say I'm a believer in God, but not in what man has made and awful rules opposed upon women. My ex husband treated me like a second class person and the marrying of other wives is just so painful to recall.
My daughter will be 9 this year and the thought of her getting married at that age makes me feels physically sick and I can no longer accept that we shouldn't question or that it was "normal" in that age. the problem is no-one is allowed to question and I need to question.
anyways, thats a brief about me. Pleased to meet you and hear your experiences and how to get over the fear!
peace and love