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 Topic: I hate myself

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  • Re: I hate myself
     Reply #30 - November 16, 2008, 01:00 PM

    Well, I hope you are right. But imo, Tut ought to get help, not just over his suicidal thoughts, but his general misery, that he can´t seem to shake off. I think he ought to get help, and get out of his family-situation. He sometimes shows good, and that should be fed.
  • Re: I hate myself
     Reply #31 - November 16, 2008, 01:11 PM

    Medically, alcohol is a depressant (like cannabis, in fact) and getting drunk while feeling low will only make things worse.

    "At 8:47 I do a grenade jump off a ladder."
  • Re: I hate myself
     Reply #32 - November 16, 2008, 01:11 PM

    Well, I hope you are right. But imo, Tut ought to get help, not just over his suicidal thoughts, but his general misery, that he can´t seem to shake off. I think he ought to get help, and get out of his family-situation. He sometimes shows good, and that should be fed.


    I am right. When am I not right? He doesnt need help to overcome what is going through his life, he needs to do this for himself. He needs to sort his problems. He needs to put more effort into this situation. Tut is good.

    Dont worry about it Dio. I suppose its just my superior experience of life vs yours. Im more of an all-rounder.
  • Re: I hate myself
     Reply #33 - November 16, 2008, 01:38 PM

    Well, I hope you are right. But imo, Tut ought to get help, not just over his suicidal thoughts, but his general misery, that he can´t seem to shake off. I think he ought to get help, and get out of his family-situation. He sometimes shows good, and that should be fed.


    I am right. When am I not right? He doesnt need help to overcome what is going through his life, he needs to do this for himself. He needs to sort his problems. He needs to put more effort into this situation. Tut is good.

    Dont worry about it Dio. I suppose its just my superior experience of life vs yours. Im more of an all-rounder.


     Cheesy Cheesy Cheesy Cheesy Cheesy Cheesy Cheesy Cheesy... how CUTE!! Come here, son - Big hug - you know you want a hug! hugs
  • Re: I hate myself
     Reply #34 - November 16, 2008, 01:52 PM

    Well, I hope you are right. But imo, Tut ought to get help, not just over his suicidal thoughts, but his general misery, that he can´t seem to shake off. I think he ought to get help, and get out of his family-situation. He sometimes shows good, and that should be fed.


    I am right. When am I not right? He doesnt need help to overcome what is going through his life, he needs to do this for himself. He needs to sort his problems. He needs to put more effort into this situation. Tut is good.

    Dont worry about it Dio. I suppose its just my superior experience of life vs yours. Im more of an all-rounder.


     Cheesy Cheesy Cheesy Cheesy Cheesy Cheesy Cheesy Cheesy... how CUTE!! Come here, son - Big hug - you know you want a hug! hugs


    You admit defeat in wierd ways. And no, I dont want a hug. So there.
  • Re: I hate myself
     Reply #35 - November 16, 2008, 02:01 PM

    I don´t admit defeat, when am not defeated- anyways, this thread is about Tut, not about you and I fighting, sweety.   Smiley ... let´s agree to disagree on Tut, and that we both hope, he gets better, and gets a grip on his life, okay?  thnkyu
  • Re: I hate myself
     Reply #36 - November 16, 2008, 02:06 PM

    I don´t admit defeat, when am not defeated- anyways, this thread is about Tut, not about you and I fighting, sweety.   Smiley ... let´s agree to disagree on Tut, and that we both hope, he gets better, and gets a grip on his life, okay?  thnkyu


    No. I was right and you were wrong. Simple as.
  • Re: I hate myself
     Reply #37 - November 16, 2008, 02:07 PM

    You Singhs really are too stubborn for words!  Roll Eyes ... but I loves ya! Big hug
  • Re: I hate myself
     Reply #38 - November 16, 2008, 02:10 PM

    You Singhs really are too stubborn for words!  Roll Eyes ... but I loves ya! Big hug


    No, we're not. And stop talking about love or something. Talk about anything normal. Day to day. No mentioning love.
  • Re: I hate myself
     Reply #39 - November 16, 2008, 02:21 PM

    You Singhs really are too stubborn for words!  Roll Eyes ... but I loves ya! Big hug


    No, we're not. And stop talking about love or something. Talk about anything normal. Day to day. No mentioning love.


    To love someone IS normal, duh!  Roll Eyes Even the other Singh I know agrees!  Tongue
  • Re: I hate myself
     Reply #40 - November 16, 2008, 02:27 PM

    You Singhs really are too stubborn for words!  Roll Eyes ... but I loves ya! Big hug


    No, we're not. And stop talking about love or something. Talk about anything normal. Day to day. No mentioning love.


    To love someone IS normal, duh!  Roll Eyes Even the other Singh I know agrees!  Tongue



    Dont give a shit about him.

    Talk abouts something elses. Change of subject. I forbid you to talk about this forever.
  • Re: I hate myself
     Reply #41 - November 16, 2008, 02:28 PM

    You Singhs really are too stubborn for words!  Roll Eyes ... but I loves ya! Big hug


    No, we're not. And stop talking about love or something. Talk about anything normal. Day to day. No mentioning love.


    To love someone IS normal, duh!  Roll Eyes Even the other Singh I know agrees!  Tongue



    Dont give a shit about him.

    Talk abouts something elses. Change of subject. I forbid you to talk about this forever.


    Lol! Yeah, am very impressed by your "I forbid you!"  Cheesy
  • Re: I hate myself
     Reply #42 - November 16, 2008, 02:30 PM

    You Singhs really are too stubborn for words!  Roll Eyes ... but I loves ya! Big hug


    No, we're not. And stop talking about love or something. Talk about anything normal. Day to day. No mentioning love.


    To love someone IS normal, duh!  Roll Eyes Even the other Singh I know agrees!  Tongue



    Dont give a shit about him.

    Talk abouts something elses. Change of subject. I forbid you to talk about this forever.


    Lol! Yeah, am very impressed by your "I forbid you!"  Cheesy


    In front of me anyway. It's all depressing shit.
  • Re: I hate myself
     Reply #43 - November 16, 2008, 05:03 PM

    I was drunk,very drunk and suicidal too. It felt more relay thinking about killing myself while being drunk it made more sense, I wanted to electricute myself to death. But then I thought maybe I will just blow the trip switch and not die, and then a phone call from my friend inviting me to his place, probably saved me.

    Am scared thought, I felt like I really wanted to do it, and not going to drink anymore, its fucking going to killme.


    GET HELP, TUT... NOW!!

    There ARE emergency services available... USE them! YOU need to make a first step, so life can get better!!



    This is how I feel:
    http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=jGrYQRiJ82o

    This song sums everything up.

    I did contact the emergency services onces, when I was feeling really low, then my mom found out from the letters I had written. It was just not nice, I don't want her to feel bad thinking about me, she tells me she loves me and will help me, but I can't speak to them, the words just don't come out even if I try the words just don't come out, something is wrong with me. 

    The really interesting thing is, when I was drunk and thinking about killing myself, it felt good it, it was addictive fantasizing about killing myself. Even though I was tipsy I've never felt so connected, it could breath the air I felt really alive when I was thinking about doing it. I think I might have done it if I did not end up going out. Now am scared am not going to ever drink alone.   
  • Re: I hate myself
     Reply #44 - November 16, 2008, 05:11 PM

    Medically, alcohol is a depressant (like cannabis, in fact) and getting drunk while feeling low will only make things worse.


    It felt nice, ironically. The feeling the thoughts about killing myself, its hard to explain but it was a little like being "CONNECTED" I could breath better and think better... I don't think I will kill myself though I don't really think I would do it, but I realize this is not normal and its not healthy.

    If someones been suicidal they'll know what I mean by feeling connected, and being able to breath better.
  • Re: I hate myself
     Reply #45 - November 16, 2008, 05:15 PM

    By the way, I am kind of getting help, I will be seeing someone on Thursday, to talk to them about the feeling I am feeling. I would have done it sooner but the only problem was it was a male and a Muslim to, and I just don't find it easier to speak to men, it find it easier to speak to a woman about it.
  • Re: I hate myself
     Reply #46 - November 16, 2008, 06:44 PM

    Go and see a woman doctor then, ASAP.

    Religion is ignorance giftwrapped in lyricism.
  • Re: I hate myself
     Reply #47 - November 17, 2008, 12:19 PM

    Go and see a woman doctor then, ASAP.

    Sojourn, did u have experience talking to both men and women doctors?

    "Ask the slave girl; she will tell you the truth.' So the Apostle called Burayra to ask her. Ali got up and gave her a violent beating first, saying, 'Tell the Apostle the truth.'"
  • Re: I hate myself
     Reply #48 - November 17, 2008, 03:31 PM

    Go and see a woman doctor then, ASAP.

    Sojourn, did u have experience talking to both men and women doctors?

    Yes, I do. My psycho is  female. My GP practice of 6 has 50/50 male and female doctors. I go to the one who I think is most able to handle the particular problem I've got at a given time.

    Religion is ignorance giftwrapped in lyricism.
  • Re: I hate myself
     Reply #49 - November 17, 2008, 04:17 PM

    K.T.
    Is your wife in the UK? May be you can arrange her to come back. So you will be atleast bit more happier her being around and concentrate less upon your BIL.
  • Re: I hate myself
     Reply #50 - November 17, 2008, 04:55 PM

    K.T.
    Is your wife in the UK? May be you can arrange her to come back. So you will be atleast bit more happier her being around and concentrate less upon your BIL.


    My wifes in Pakistan, we fucked up the visa, she had to go back her mom was ill, and then we fucked her visa up, well I did. Her moms even worse so she will not be coming until end of next year, maybe even later. She wants me to come there, but I don't want to go there, as I will have to live with my in laws.
  • Re: I hate myself
     Reply #51 - November 17, 2008, 05:15 PM

    Well you don't want to go because you will have to love with her folks, maybe she does not want to come back to you for the same reason  whistling2

    I was not blessed with the ability to have blind faith. I cant beleive something just because someone says its true.
  • Re: I hate myself
     Reply #52 - November 17, 2008, 05:40 PM

    Well you don't want to go because you will have to love with her folks, maybe she does not want to come back to you for the same reason  whistling2


    She does want to come back, but its a visa issue right now... It will be already though once my dad puts his business on my name on Thursday!
  • Re: I hate myself
     Reply #53 - November 17, 2008, 05:57 PM

    Your Dad trusts you with his business  wacko

    I was not blessed with the ability to have blind faith. I cant beleive something just because someone says its true.
  • Re: I hate myself
     Reply #54 - November 18, 2008, 11:17 AM

    Your Dad trusts you with his business  wacko


    No of course not!

    Not after the last time, when I lost him a contact which was worth over half a mill. Am not even allowed into the factory, and guess what I can even speak to my own dad the security manger does not allow me to go in, unless I call my dad who has to call the manger and tell him to let me in. But I can't wait for my few months of power! I will have to addend the meetings. Am going to be the director, my moms already bought me a suit. Am really going to this time prove to my dad am ready... He does not trust me, but he is impressed by all the praise I get form my mangers where I work.
  • Re: I hate myself
     Reply #55 - November 18, 2008, 11:19 AM

    The transport manger is a bitch, firstly am going to find way to sack her!
  • Re: I hate myself
     Reply #56 - November 19, 2008, 05:42 AM

    Hey Tut, do you mind if I use your pic on FFI, gotta tell you more than your posts, I just click on threads you posted, just to laugh at McCrying.....  Cheesy Cheesy

    I was not blessed with the ability to have blind faith. I cant beleive something just because someone says its true.
  • Re: I hate myself
     Reply #57 - November 19, 2008, 11:52 AM

    Ask berbs.
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