But I suppose that's good in a way? It proves that you've well and truly moved on, and nobody is going to hold that against you here. We all know how tough it was for you, and I'm sure I speak for most members when I say that we are happy for you. We are just glad that you are enjoying life now and that's the most important thing.
Just reading through your old blog entries will help people here. It will motivate them to get away from potentially dangerous situations as they see a survivor of sorts. So don't think you aren't helping! Reading about you being back on your feet IS help!
Oh yeah, I can see that because I also feel it.
I feel so far removed from my old life that at times I don't recognise myself anymore, and I like it.
I also feel that maybe my contributions are not the right image the forum is about, I seem to epitomise all the reasons muslims say we leave islam in the first place, even though that's not the case but rather a natural progression for myself.
I go through the same at regular intervals. You get faced with the same old arguments again and again and eventually you get bored with repeating yourself. I still can't resist a really good chew toy, but the run of the mill arguments if I get involved at all I'm on autopilot at this stage.
It's like using the same shampoo for too long, doesn't matter how much you love it, eventually your hair needs a break because too much of the same thing is bad for you.
That's a good sign. Good to see you have time to live life rather than harbor on past events and the ideologies responsible. Surely with a good break you will again find the urge to get involved in the discussions.
I think that's what it is, I need a very long break I'm just still struggling with feelings of guilt even though the forum is well and truly capable of ticking over without me and has been for a very long time, I feel like I'm supposed to be here, when I;m not here I feel like a let down, and when I am here I feel the same way.
After spending the latter half of my teens, the whole of my twenties and my early thirties giving islam the benefit of the doubt, chasing scholars and faulting myself, there came a point where I had just had enough. I'm so sick of trying to square the circle so to speak and want to continue with whatever life I might have left raising my kids as rational and moral human beings without religion. Now I'm really at the stage where I have become completely numb to all the old tired arguments that the faithful present. I also don't like having to repeat myself. I had to learn the hard way. It was only when I exercised my "freewill" picked up books on philosophy and the arguments both for and against god and religion that I saw all the fallacies and confirmation of my doubts. I come on the forum to speak to like minded individuals who like me, have discarded the garb called religion. The religious if they are really seeking the truth know where the philosophy section in the library and bookshop is. I just breath a sigh of relief that I have been there done that and come out of it in one piece. It's nice to talk on here, have a laugh about anything, because where I live you can't do that without someone taking it personally.
True, having a laugh with like minded people has been part of this healing process for me. I think this forum set out to do what it was intended to do when it comes to myself, and I hope other members feel this has been a cathartic experience for them too.
Berbs, whenever you feel that way just look at this Mullah and see how beautiful your life is in comparison with his.... It must be terrible to have to fake a cry?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pQnyp1UFiPoI know it has been posted in two different threads now, but I can not stop watching it... I think the look of his face is haunting me...
I hadn't seen that yet, it's bad but not as bad as some of those "speaking in tongues" things that happen to certain xtians, haha now that's truly insane.
Berbs, I'm quite sure the whole forum want to get into your position where religion doesn't matter any more. Its nothing to feel bad about, we're all glad you've moved on
I am really happy for you, you deserve it
Thanks hun
Topic: Feeling like I have nothing left to give