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 Topic: My full story

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  • My full story
     OP - March 06, 2010, 02:05 AM
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    "The more I study religions the more I am convinced that man never worshiped anything but himself."
    ~Sir Richard Francis Burton

    "I think religion is just like smoking: Both invented by people, addictive, harmful, and kills!"
    ~RIBS
  • Re: My full story
     Reply #1 - March 06, 2010, 02:25 AM

    Nice one CC  Afro
    "we can smell traitors and country haters"


    Quote from: arX on May 01, 2011, 03:33 AM
    God is Love.
    Love is Blind. Stevie Wonder is blind. Therefore, Stevie Wonder is God.

  • Re: My full story
     Reply #2 - March 06, 2010, 02:33 AM
    Part 2
    "The more I study religions the more I am convinced that man never worshiped anything but himself."
    ~Sir Richard Francis Burton

    "I think religion is just like smoking: Both invented by people, addictive, harmful, and kills!"
    ~RIBS
  • Re: My full story
     Reply #3 - March 06, 2010, 03:42 AM
    Part 3. Post Apostasy

    "The more I study religions the more I am convinced that man never worshiped anything but himself."
    ~Sir Richard Francis Burton

    "I think religion is just like smoking: Both invented by people, addictive, harmful, and kills!"
    ~RIBS
  • Re: My full story
     Reply #4 - March 06, 2010, 04:21 AM
    Quote from: Cool Canadian on March 06, 2010, 02:33 AM
    I remember I stopped for a while until a beautiful pakistani girl was in my class and we chatted, I got an erection just by talking to her and all I thought about was Allah's punishment, but my fucking penis would not shut the fuck up! So at home, I choked the chicken and I felt like garbage for the whole day. Thats when the doubt came in.

     Cheesy
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  • Re: My full story
     Reply #5 - March 06, 2010, 12:08 PM
    Quote from: Cool Canadian on March 06, 2010, 02:05 AM
    And one day I heard a Qur'an recitation on youtube for the first time by some guy named Mishary Rashid Al-Afasy. I was touched, and very teary and I never heard anything like it before.


    That's so weird. Was the recitation in arabic? If so, you didn't even understand what it was saying, right? So why did it make you teary eyed? That is soo weird..

    Even when I was a muslim I never liked hearing the recitation, it always had 0 effect on me even when I tried to make myself listen and like it. I always liked reading translation of quran instead of listening to arabic recitations.. you barely understand those anyway.
  • Re: My full story
     Reply #6 - March 06, 2010, 12:17 PM
    Quote from: liberated on March 06, 2010, 12:08 PM
    I always liked reading translation of quran instead of listening to arabic recitations.. you barely understand those anyway.


    Same as, I only had teary eyed reactions to reading the quran myself.  I found the actual arabic recitation very grating on my ears.  Never liked it, felt it could be done so much beter than the annoying chanty way it is done.

    I also now think it has brainwashing capabilities, since one of the "cures to my apostasy" passed on to me by a very worried step mother, from the imam, was that I should listen to sura buqara, in arabic, 30 times.

    When I asked why reading it wasn't sufficient, I was told that only hearing it in arabic would do the trick haha.  Never did, can't remember where I put my tin foil hat so I didn't want to risk it.  Cheesy

    Thanks for sharing your story CC.  Smiley
    Inhale the good shit, exhale the bullshit.
  • Re: My full story
     Reply #7 - March 06, 2010, 12:25 PM
    The funny thing is, my doubts about Islam also started because it prohibited masturbation  Cheesy I was around 13-14 at that time. And I decided to do it anyway because I was positive that i won't be sent to hell because of masturbation
  • Re: My full story
     Reply #8 - March 06, 2010, 12:28 PM
    Quote from: BerberElla on March 06, 2010, 12:17 PM
    Same as, I only had teary eyed reactions to reading the quran myself.  

    This is also strange because i never had teary eyed reaction to ANYTHING from the quran, whether reading it or listening to translations. I mean.. what's in there to be teary eyed about, really? Or is it really easy to make you guys cry? LOL

    What did you read that made you cry, berbs?
  • Re: My full story
     Reply #9 - March 06, 2010, 12:48 PM
    The worst part is I can't remember which sura it was.

    It was ramadan, during my intial religious crazy days, I was reading the quran every evening after I broke my fast.  It was a verse that mostly dealt with moses, and at the end of it I felt a strong need to bow down islamically.  I was very moved.

    I can't remember why exactly, but I felt compelled to bow down, and sajid fully.

    When I mentioned it to my mother in law she said it must have been one of the 4 suras of sajid, because apprantly there are 4 that make you want to bow down.

    It was years ago, and I can't remember the sura, and I have searched a few times trying to find out about these so called suras, but can't find anything.

    Weird.

    The prince of egypt made me cry too lol moses always made me cry.  Cheesy
    Inhale the good shit, exhale the bullshit.
  • Re: My full story
     Reply #10 - March 06, 2010, 12:51 PM
    Lol, so what did the verse say exactly?
  • Re: My full story
     Reply #11 - March 06, 2010, 12:59 PM

    Cool Canadian, any religion, ideology, creed, or dogma that actively seeks to turn a person against his or her mother, father or any family, is fundamentally deranged, perverted, and yes, I'm going to use that word - EVIL

    Now - I'll say it reflects on the perversion and degeneracy of all those who practise dawah-ganda and do this, to encourage a rift, and to destroy the most sacred bond of nature - that of the relationship and love between parent and child, or between siblings.

    Merchants of dawah are degenerate, creepy, psychopathic, horrible perverts.
    "we can smell traitors and country haters"


    Quote from: arX on May 01, 2011, 03:33 AM
    God is Love.
    Love is Blind. Stevie Wonder is blind. Therefore, Stevie Wonder is God.

  • Re: My full story
     Reply #12 - March 06, 2010, 01:03 PM
    Quote from: liberated on March 06, 2010, 12:08 PM
    That's so weird. Was the recitation in arabic? If so, you didn't even understand what it was saying, right? So why did it make you teary eyed? That is soo weird..

    Even when I was a muslim I never liked hearing the recitation, it always had 0 effect on me even when I tried to make myself listen and like it. I always liked reading translation of quran instead of listening to arabic recitations.. you barely understand those anyway.

    Yeah, but living in Pakistan where its heard all the time, its no big deal and can sometime get quite annoying. 
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  • Re: My full story
     Reply #13 - March 06, 2010, 02:41 PM
    Pakistani Women.

    When they know how to take care of themselves....oh my  Yummy Phwoar
    Pakistan Zindabad? ya Pakistan sey Zinda bhaag?

    Long Live Pakistan? Or run with your lives from Pakistan?
  • Re: My full story
     Reply #14 - March 06, 2010, 02:56 PM
    Quote from: Cool Canadian on March 06, 2010, 03:42 AM
    One thing that is strange about leaving Islam is that when you leave, those religious brothers/sisters you once chilled and agreed with their views, it turns into a 360.

    I believe you meant 180  whistling2  grin12
    Pakistan Zindabad? ya Pakistan sey Zinda bhaag?

    Long Live Pakistan? Or run with your lives from Pakistan?
  • Re: My full story
     Reply #15 - March 06, 2010, 05:07 PM
    Quote from: atheist.pk on March 06, 2010, 02:56 PM
    I believe you meant 180  whistling2  grin12


    DAMN, a typo!  Cheesy

    Yea I meant 180. But fuck some of those "friendships" were so fake!
    "The more I study religions the more I am convinced that man never worshiped anything but himself."
    ~Sir Richard Francis Burton

    "I think religion is just like smoking: Both invented by people, addictive, harmful, and kills!"
    ~RIBS
  • Re: My full story
     Reply #16 - March 06, 2010, 07:13 PM
    Quote from: atheist.pk on March 06, 2010, 02:41 PM
    Pakistani Women.

    When they know how to take care of themselves....oh my  Yummy Phwoar


    lol, what do you mean by take care of themselves?
    "The more I study religions the more I am convinced that man never worshiped anything but himself."
    ~Sir Richard Francis Burton

    "I think religion is just like smoking: Both invented by people, addictive, harmful, and kills!"
    ~RIBS
  • Re: My full story
     Reply #17 - March 06, 2010, 09:07 PM
    Remarkable story CC  Afro

  • Re: My full story
     Reply #18 - March 06, 2010, 09:47 PM
    Love the huge paragraphs lol. Seriously, nice story.
    "The ideal tyranny is that which is ignorantly self-administered by its victims. The most perfect slaves are, therefore, those which blissfully and unawaredly enslave themselves."
  • Re: My full story
     Reply #19 - March 07, 2010, 11:36 AM
    Nice story, CC. But wtf is Islamic cologne? Never heard of such a thing :S
    He's no friend to the friendless
    And he's the mother of grief
    There's only sorrow for tomorrow
    Surely life is too brief
  • Re: My full story
     Reply #20 - March 07, 2010, 11:41 AM
    I think he means those musks in the tiny dab bottles, my dad used to have them.  From saudi apparantly his ones were.

    To scent yourself with musk, as a man, before going to the mosque is sunna I think.
    Inhale the good shit, exhale the bullshit.
  • Re: My full story
     Reply #21 - March 07, 2010, 11:45 AM
    Ah alright. My dad wears cologne before going to the mosque, but thankfully it's not musk.
    He's no friend to the friendless
    And he's the mother of grief
    There's only sorrow for tomorrow
    Surely life is too brief
  • Re: My full story
     Reply #22 - March 07, 2010, 05:52 PM
    Quote from: BerberElla on March 07, 2010, 11:41 AM
    I think he means those musks in the tiny dab bottles, my dad used to have them.  From saudi apparantly his ones were.

    To scent yourself with musk, as a man, before going to the mosque is sunna I think.


    Yea, thats the one, thanks for clarifying. I think its called Ad'r, many smell so strong, but the one I got is just lovely!
    "The more I study religions the more I am convinced that man never worshiped anything but himself."
    ~Sir Richard Francis Burton

    "I think religion is just like smoking: Both invented by people, addictive, harmful, and kills!"
    ~RIBS
  • Re: My full story
     Reply #23 - March 07, 2010, 05:53 PM
    Quote from: Naerys on March 07, 2010, 11:45 AM
    Ah alright. My dad wears cologne before going to the mosque, but thankfully it's not musk.


    Whats wrong with musk? Is his too strong or something?
    "The more I study religions the more I am convinced that man never worshiped anything but himself."
    ~Sir Richard Francis Burton

    "I think religion is just like smoking: Both invented by people, addictive, harmful, and kills!"
    ~RIBS
  • Re: My full story
     Reply #24 - March 07, 2010, 06:37 PM
    Wow CC, thanks for the story.  I haven't read the entire thing but just scanning through your story it seems that your journey to and from Islam parallels mine quite a bit.

    I do find some Qu'ran recitations quite lovely and moving but unfortunately, thanks to Saudi Wahhabi dawahganda even the oral recititation has become harsh on the ears.  It's like they want to immitate the most grating, harsh Saudi accent possible and almost entirely through the nose.
    Atheism is a non-prophet organization.

    The sleeper has awakened -  Dune

    Give a man a fish, and you'll feed him for a day Give him a religion, and he'll starve to death while praying for a fish!
  • Re: My full story
     Reply #25 - March 07, 2010, 06:40 PM
    Quote from: Nour on March 07, 2010, 06:37 PM
    Wow CC, thanks for the story.  I haven't read the entire thing but just scanning through your story it seems that your journey to and from Islam parallels mine quite a bit.

    I do find some Qu'ran recitations quite lovely and moving but unfortunately, thanks to Saudi Wahhabi dawahganda even the oral recititation has become harsh on the ears.  It's like they want to immitate the most grating, harsh Saudi accent possible and almost entirely through the nose.


    lol, you think so? I think Saudi Adans are very bland and irritating but some adans are amazing. My journey was awkward I got to admit. Are you from a Catholic background, and did your parents flip at you when converting? Just curious, because mine did!
    "The more I study religions the more I am convinced that man never worshiped anything but himself."
    ~Sir Richard Francis Burton

    "I think religion is just like smoking: Both invented by people, addictive, harmful, and kills!"
    ~RIBS
  • Re: My full story
     Reply #26 - March 07, 2010, 06:46 PM
    Great story  Afro . I don't think I ever read a story of a convert ex-Muslim.

    Quote from: Cool Canadian
    I remember taking a break from this forum for a month because during that month I tried to practice one more time but it was useless and it didn't work out, then I started posting here again.

    Now that's interesting. What exactly was it that you tried practicing again, and what were the reasons?
    "In every time and culture there are pressures to conform to the prevailing prejudices. But there are also, in every place and epoch, those who value the truth; who record the evidence faithfully. Future generations are in their debt." -Carl Sagan

  • Re: My full story
     Reply #27 - March 07, 2010, 06:54 PM
    Really interesting story! Thx for sharing it with us!
  • Re: My full story
     Reply #28 - March 07, 2010, 07:23 PM
    Quote from: Infidel on March 07, 2010, 06:46 PM
    Great story  Afro . I don't think I ever read a story of a convert ex-Muslim.
    Now that's interesting. What exactly was it that you tried practicing again, and what were the reasons?


    Hmm, well thoughts came into my mind saying what if those people on the COEM are wrong, and for some reason Islam is actually the truth and I die right now, I'm eternally fucked. So I guess fear got me into it for a bit, but I gave up in like a week. But I can tell you one thing as an ex-convert. Being a convert will in most cases destroy your relationship with your family. If I have been Muslim for longer and practiced even more my family would be broken and I would never get along with them again. Good thing is, now that I am not Muslim, my relationship with my family is great, Alhumdulilah Tongue
    "The more I study religions the more I am convinced that man never worshiped anything but himself."
    ~Sir Richard Francis Burton

    "I think religion is just like smoking: Both invented by people, addictive, harmful, and kills!"
    ~RIBS
  • Re: My full story
     Reply #29 - March 07, 2010, 07:46 PM
    Well you failed the test then  Tongue It was never meant to be easy.
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